I'm really struggling

[Reallystrugglinginside]

I'm so down. I finding each day harder and harder to fight. I'm exhausted, I'm tired of the struggle, or putting one foot in front of the other.

I am so messed up in my head, I get so confused by my thoughts, they go round and round and get jumbled up. I find myself going through the day and detaching from everything around me. My family deserve so much more than what I can give them.

I keep having suicidal thoughts and SH urges. I need some release. I'm hurting so much. I don't know what to do anymore.

[Pare]

I think you do need something though, don't you? Can you ask to change to another one?

[Reallystrugglinginside]

I don't know. I feel like they are making me feel worse I've put on a huge amount of weight and I hate it. My self esteem is so low because of my weight.

[Pare]

Sounds like something to talk about with your doctor. Mirtazepine have that side effect, not all do.

[reallystrugglinginside]

Hi all,

I'm sure no one is interested but I thought I would come back to this and update.

So I talked to my link worker about coming off my meds and I decided to cut them in half, then reduce the last half slowly. I'm not doing too bad, apart from the physical withdrawal symptoms, my mental health has been ok. Not much difference really. Still feeling bad.

My link worker sent off a referral to the assessment team, I had my appointment and they are giving me a CPN for long term support. So it all feels like it's going in an ok direction. I'm in contact with the Samaritans on and off when I'm feeling extremely bad and they help by talking to me.

[bluebell345]

really pleased with your good news. :)
it looks like you are on the right path to recovery.