What am I supposed to do with my life?

[Queenofknickers]

After multiple episodes of severe depression I have been "invalided" from my job/career. I know I'm lucky because I have an insurance policy that will pay mortgage and bills but I'm at that point in recovery where I know I need to do something but still can't face doing anything. Even seeing friends freaks me out a bit. Plus am dreading school hols with bickering DSs. I sound like a right ungrateful cow.

Can you do some voluntary work?

Perhaps have a look through these tips from Mind, and see if anything grabs you.

Can you remember what things made you feel good before all this started?

Would it help you to have some sort of plan for the school holidays? E.g:
one structured activity one day each week (holiday club/football camp/etc) funds permitting,

one family day out each week,

get DSs to start telling you about things that they would like to do in holidays so that you can fill in a bit of a schedule or have a list of ideas to dip into.

One step at a time.