In pain.

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I'm not happy with my life atm. I have an amazing dd who I love dearly and she keeps me going. I also have family and friends but my past glass away at my soul until I feel depressed and anxious.
I want to get over the abuse and regrets associated with it. Have applied for counselling.

Well done for taking the first step. That is you talking control of your life. Would you consider medication

Knows away at my soul I mean!

Yes...I've just been reading the citralopran thread. I don't really want to go on it as I hate weight gain, but i might have to.

Some of them don't cause weight gain. I take Prozac and it doesn't and it has been helpful