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Somebody is standing behind me

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Aniline · 17/02/2014 21:06

I get a feeling that somebody is standing behind me with an ax. I have been feeling depressed and suicidal lately. In a way I should be happy that somebody would try to kill me with an ax, but I am scared.

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JesuslovesmethisIknow · 17/02/2014 21:33

Oh honey, that sounds horrid. has this been going on long?

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Aniline · 17/02/2014 21:36

Today. I have been feeling suicidal lately. Maybe the ax man is my own outsourced feelings.

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DumDum32 · 17/02/2014 21:38

Can u call your crisis team sounds like u could do with someone professional to talk to right now!

sooperdooper · 17/02/2014 21:39

Sorry you're feeling like this, is there anyone you could talk to? If not, could you call the Samaritans now and your GP tomorrow to get some support

Thinking of you, hope things get better

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Aniline · 17/02/2014 21:42

I can't call crisis here. I will talk to cpn tomorrow. I am sure I am outsourcing my negative feelings.

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JesuslovesmethisIknow · 17/02/2014 21:45

is your cpn good? x

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Aniline · 17/02/2014 21:47

He is ok. I just don't know how to express myself properly.

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DumDum32 · 17/02/2014 21:47

Can u get through the night safely? & then speak to cpn first thing tomorrow?

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Aniline · 17/02/2014 21:48

I am safe in my bed.

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DumDum32 · 17/02/2014 21:51

Good to hear aniline & I hope u get some rest :)

JesuslovesmethisIknow · 17/02/2014 22:00

yes, try to get some shut eye and maybe write down your thoughts for your cpn if you cant discuss so well , it might help xx

giraffesCantBoogie · 18/02/2014 01:10

www.metanoia.org/suicide/

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Aniline · 18/02/2014 06:51

Still feeling the ax man's presence. I will hava a chat with the cpn at noon.

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DumDum32 · 18/02/2014 10:10

Keep urself distracted till then maybe some tv!

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Aniline · 18/02/2014 13:49

I had a chat with cpn. I don't feel so suicidal anymore. I mentioned about the ax man. He did not really comment on that. I hope ax man goes away soon. He said he will discuss with psych about getting a new med to help my depression.

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kotinka · 18/02/2014 14:00

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Aniline · 18/02/2014 17:48

Thanks kotinka. It could be anxiety too, who knows but the feeling has lessened.

Suicidal thoughts are back. Cpn asked if I would like to be seen more often. He meant home treatment. I said no as I felt better. Now I am feeling worse again. I might have to call him tomorrow and ask for that.

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mouses · 21/02/2014 12:43

Aniline, I have this too. not an ax man but feelin like theres someone behind me whos going to hurt me, hiding around corner of the door. once I was running my bath and some one behind me was gona push my head under the water!

mine are shadows that taunt me, running around my house, makes me scared and edgy.

my gp and psychiatrist don't give a toss, just say its part of my depression/anxiety.
I sympathise for you. x

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Aniline · 21/02/2014 13:42

The feeling has now disappeared. I will start antidepressant soon.

Pity your doctors are not bothered if the symptoms disturb you, mouses.

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mouses · 21/02/2014 14:00

glad its passed for you.

i have them still even on anti-depressants, (not that it will be the same for you)

docs just say its all in my mind. if only they knew what it was like to live wit this!

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