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I took an OD last night

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dontrunwithscissors · 16/01/2014 18:05

I've been feeling so low and last night was the final straw. I had the most horrific nightmare. I just don't know how many more times I can go through this. I'm not sure how much I took. Told hubby but he didn't think I needed to go to A and E. I know it was paracetemol, dyhydracodeine and brandy. I've been sleepy/sick today. Just so lost as to what to do next. Sorry I'm rambling--just needed to try to get this out of my head as it's buzzing with so many thoughts.

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WidowWadman · 16/01/2014 20:53

Can you show your husband this thread so he understands that he needs to take you to A&E NOW?

fluffydressinggown · 16/01/2014 20:54

You need to go to hospital to deal with the physical side of your overdose, the rest can come when you are being treated.

Honestly, I found being in hospital (a normal hospital not a psych unit) after an overdose to be enormously peaceful, I didn't have to worry about fighting and being scared it I could just watch the drip going into me and sleep. I am sorry if this sounds weird, it just gave me a break.

ashtrayheart · 16/01/2014 20:55

Please go and get checked out x

Thurlow · 16/01/2014 20:56

Oh, dontrun, I'm so sorry to see you back here.

I can only echo the others to go to A&E. You do deserve to be seen and helped. Can your DH manage with the children? Or is there someone else who can sit with them while he goes with you?

You did so well last year when you were in the States, so so well. Please try and remember how well you did then x

gamerchick · 16/01/2014 21:07

GO TO HOSPITAL. sort out the rest of the stuff when you've got that sorted. You need looking after right now... Please, you could be in serious trouble.

starlight1234 · 16/01/2014 21:11

Maybe think of it from another perspective...I am assuming you have Kids..They don't deserve to see there mum suffer...You deserve the chance to raise them....

Why does you DH think you don't need hospital...What are you worried about? There is the option they can give you something to help change your thoughts

rozyczka · 16/01/2014 21:21

Have you thought about talking to someone who isn't your family/the emergency services? A professional?

rozyczka · 16/01/2014 21:25

If you're looking for someone to speak to, I can tell you. That evilness that you speak of - that's not real. It feels real, but you don't deserve to feel like that.

Millie2013 · 16/01/2014 21:26

I'm a toxicologist and I have seen the awful effects of even relatively small OD of paracetamol. Please get some help tonight.

Your children need their mummy, but first and foremost, their mummy needs to reach out for some help. Everything else can be dealt with in due course, but please just make that one step and ask for some help, tonight xx

grapelovingweirdo · 16/01/2014 22:54

Please get help OP! You are not evil, you are ill. There is a big difference. I am so so so worried about you. If you're based near the south west then I am on hand to look after the DC if DH stays with you. Get to hospital now.

grapelovingweirdo · 16/01/2014 22:57

Message me if you want to talk. I hope the lack of updates over the last couple of hours means you're now being taken care of. You're the only one of you on the planet, you deserve to live and be happy and your children deserve their lovely mum.

Thurlow · 17/01/2014 07:26

Really hope the quietness is because you have gone to hospital? Do let us know how you are, if you x

whattoWHO · 17/01/2014 07:46

I hope you've been to A and E and are getting supported towards recovery.
I've been thinking about you and wishing you strength.

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dontrunwithscissors · 17/01/2014 12:23

Thank you all and sorry for being quiet. I didn't make it to A and E last night, but did see my CPN this morning. DH spoke to her and they have done an urgent blood test and will get back to me as soon as the results are in. I've been referred to the acute response team and pdoc has increased my med's.

My head is swirling with so many ways of hurting myself, I can't sit still. But have just taken some diazepam so maybe I'll get some peace soon. Not really looking forward to seeing ART, but it was that or admission, which I certainly don't want.

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fluffydressinggown · 17/01/2014 12:39

I am so glad you are getting some help. I hope the increase in support is helpful. Thinking of you xx

Millie2013 · 17/01/2014 12:41

I'm pleased that you are getting some help, stick with the diazepam and make use of the ART and see what they have to offer in terms of longer term supportive care. You have definitely done the right thing, even if it all feels very confusing right now xx

SnowyMouse · 17/01/2014 12:53

I hope the med changes and support help.

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dontrunwithscissors · 17/01/2014 12:57

Thanks. Just got the results and told to go to a and e. Refused at first as don't want treatment but have agreed to attend. Doesn't mean to say i will let them treat me. Feeling like I wish everyone would sod off. Feeling like having a 3 year old tantrum and locking myself away.

OP posts:
Thurlow · 17/01/2014 13:00

Well done for agreeing to go. One step at a time - see how you feel when you are there x

SnowyMouse · 17/01/2014 13:10

Do agree to be treated if you can, it's easier that way.

LastingLight · 17/01/2014 13:21

I'm sorry you are feeling so terrible... it is very hard to care for yourself when you're feeling that way. Please go with what the medical professionals recommend, you may not feel like it now but will regret it in time to come if you have ongoing health issues because of the od. You deserve the best possible care and your kids deserve their mom as healthy as she can be.

Millie2013 · 17/01/2014 14:09

Go to A&E and get treated. It's far better to regret going than regret not going. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other, there is nothing that can't be sorted, given the right support, but you can't do it on your own x

whattoWHO · 17/01/2014 17:38

I'm still thinking of you. Hope all is well. X

fluffydressinggown · 17/01/2014 18:13

Hope you are getting on OK at the hospital.

Millie2013 · 18/01/2014 09:55

How are you now, dontrun? X