Drugged when I was younger

[Sausagewaffle]

I am at a loss here, and in need of some advice, if possible.

When I was around 13-14 my drink was spiked with poppers.
I can remember taking the last drink, and handing my bottle to a friend. I remember nothing after that.
I just have info of what I was told...which wasn't much.
I was found in some toilets by a woman.

An ambulance was called, and if that woman had found me 2 minutes later, I'd of been dead. (some friends i had)
So she saved my life!

11 years has passed now, and with me not remember anything, I am pretty ok with it. Until I talk about it - which I have been today.

What would you do...if you had forgotten what had happened, but knowing something might have?

I haven't forgotten by choice, and it annoys me.
I have snippets of me being in hospital, and I remember the nurses worrying as I couldn't remember going to the toilet, and kept wanting to go, but not remembering where the toilet was - even though I was repeatedly going.

How can I let this go?
I have contemplated ringing the doctors, in hope he has something on his system from when I was in hospital.
I just feel that others know what happened, and they aren't telling me.
I was fine...not thinking about it at all...until I spoke about it today. Now my mind will not rest! This happens whenever I mention it, or something similar is brought up.

Sorry this is a bit of a late reply, but I hope you're still checking back from time to time. Have you had any counselling since the incident? It sounds like you would get a lot of benefit out of that - it won't be able to bring back the memories you've lost but it might help you let go of the feeling of a need to remember, iyswim, and any other damaging emotions that are still left over from the time.

You can ask to see your own medical record - anything that the doctor's likely to still have on his system would be on there. I think there's normally a fee though. I would imagine though that if anything had happened then you would have been told about it at the time, especially if there was a police investigation - I don't actually know what the legal position on that is, but if you specifically asked for the information (then or now) it would certainly be given to you.

I'm sorry that you're in this position, it's good to hear that you mostly feel ok about it now though.