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new thread folks.....im losing track but i think this might be our 7th!

all welcome. old and new. This is a supportive place for anyone suffering with any type of mental health issue.

im on Sertraline (ADs) and have been since last December. I had 6 months off work with depression and anxiety and the ladies on these threads kept me going.

Feel free to post, to comment, to ask questions, or just to lurk and feel less alone.
everyone in the village is lovely.

I have done it, books delivered. Weight off my mind. Thanks snowy

great!

Just left a message for my union rep. Another hurdle!

How is everyone on this grey grey day?

Hello everyone - another week, friend/client cancelled the work i was to be doing this week, just as well as DD2 is poorly home from school. So relieved about that actually as i think it was going to be too much to complete in the time that i had.

I now have a week to prepare for xmas, so no excuses

I found this on facebook black dog It just about sums it up for me, especially the anxiety. Quite an unfortunate analogy though as I prefer canine company to human

Just popped on here to see what its all about...I'm a bit low, frustrated not liking myself very much at the moment.

Lem Just watched the black dog thanks for the link. I have likend previous mild bouts of depression as an unwanted visitor - I try to make it sleep in the shed at the bottom of the garden but sometimes it insists on a seat at the table. I think using such analogies can help us to detach who 'we are' from depression.

Just watched the black dog and burst into tears.

I feel like I've been robbed of the last couple of years because I genuinely didn't know that I was ill. I thought it was just me, being a crap person. I never told anyone how low I felt. I learnt to hide it so well but I couldn't hide it from dh. He knew there was something wrong but I couldn't say what. The dog between us in bed is exactly how we started to sleep. Backs to each other without any part touching.
My husband finally gave up trying to figure out what was wrong between us and succumbed to the attention of someone who was 'nice' to him.
I wish I had seen this before. It just puts it all into place.

I think I might show my teenage kids this video to help them understand why I am on meds and off work.

wetwetwetfan I think thats a great idea to show your teens. Part of getting better is about being able to communicate with those around us.

Are you still fighting for your marriage or is it over? Similar thing happend to me.

We are trying to move on from it. I think we can. Opening up to him about everything is so foreign to me but now that i am doing it we are just getting stronger and stronger. It was his 'fling' that opened the floodgates and forced me to get help. I would never say that i am glad it happened because it hurts like he'll but i have to believe that something positive is happening because of it. Thanks for the hug. X

Ive seen the other thread so I will post there.

Sorry to mske you cry bur it is just so dpot on isn't it.

Something lovely has just happened to me to do with mnet am just so overwhelmed it shows how lovely people can be :)

Just had yet another rejection

So fuck it - got a really good business idea and I am going to make it happen. If people don't want to give me a job, I will make my own job,.

namechange fail

wetwet - you musn't blame yourself - it is hard for partners, but they make their own choices - i really hope that you can both move on from this.

Ashamed - welcome to the village - it is about what you want it to be really, a place to come and support and be supported, to rant and listen to other peoples rants, or just have a chat. Thats why i love this thread so much as it doesn't have to be about one thing, so if you start a thread elsewhere and want to talk about something else you have to start a new thread, wheras here you just get support and chat from people who can relate. If that makes sense. If you want to share what is making you feel crap, this is the place, if you don't thats fine too x

Orlando - thats fighting talk that is ! Good for you - i believe you will make it happen, that rejection could be a really good thing - go for it!

Go for it Orlando

I'm taking a short break from job hunting over Christmas - too much else going on! Will renew my efforts in the New Year

Am feeling a little stressed with the extra pressures of the festive season, but trying to keep a sense of proportion and to enjoy the nice bits.
How's everyone else doing?

The cinema was v cold, didn't think much of the film, lots of fighting. At least I got out I suppose

Has everyone else had a better day?

Fed up, tearful and feeling like I'm a complete waste of space.

Lovely school said, "Oh yes, if we were looking to recruit you, we'd be looking for a level 3 childcare related qualification, but you can certainly come and do voluntary work with us, I'll pass your details on"

Stupid college didn't put on its website that they expect you to have been in placement for 2 months prior to starting - so January start = near impossible. Come back in September or do a 17 week Level 1 course.

2nd training provider goes through all my details, "Oh yeah, you've got a degree. No funding for you. No part time self funded courses running - go away." This was after being told previously a degree didn't exclude me.

So I know what I need but no one will help me get it.

I am a complete &$@&$(% up and waste of space :(

Sorry you've had so many frustrations in taking things forward today Loll

There will be a way I'm sure, and impressed by the amount of energy you've been putting into everything. I'm sure it will bring results in the end.

I think it was Nelson Mandela who said everything seems impossible until it happens

I just wish both training providers had been HONEST.

If you can't cater for people with a degree, put it on your website - don't let them chase you for weeks only to slam the door in their face.

Ditto if you need people to already have a placement and DBS check - just SAY IT, don't let me go to your Careers department only to be disappointed I can't get on to your January course.

Really wondering, what's the point of my existence?

Oh (((( Lolllipop )))) You are not a (*&( up or a waste of space.

People just don't think things through much I think Lollipop - especially around stuff like DBS checks or funding criteria. They always seem to spring it on you at the last minute - like half the time they haven't fully got their heads round stuff themselves.
Really sorry it's getting you down so much x

I just think it's wrong that if you have a degree - all doors slam shut if you want to retrain.

I seriously don't know what to do - training provider number 2 said, "Oh, try and get funding through the job centre" - erm, the job centre try and get you pulled off courses because they don't see them as helping to find you a job. They will do ANYTHING, put you forward for any job possible, so that you have to stop your training. I know, I've been there, done that.

Basically, to get a TA job, I NEED my Level 3 in Supporting Teaching and Learning. But I can't get it, because the training providers are idiots who don't make stuff clear on their website.

I think part of me feels that there is always a next step Lollipop, even if that's stop for a bit and get your breath, or try a slightly different path?
But I know sometimes it's very hard to see what that next step could be or which path to take x

Thats pants lollipop :( I sometimes think having a degree and post grad qualifications are a hinderance (i have PhD and it does hold me back because people assume im like sheldon from big bang theory and wouldn't be happy in a proper job ) But I am sure you can find a way to get the training you need. Would you consider teaching rather than TA? there are opportunities for those with degrees to get funding for study and do school based training (bloody tough), doing the voluntary work in the school would be a good thing - i am not sure what you are doing just now but so many people having to do voluntary stuff to get anywhere these days. Have a look on the TES (times educational supplement) website, there will be information on how to get into TA work there and funding info.

One thing you are not is a waste of space - you sound lovely and you also talk about your ice skating, that is amazing, i'd be too scared of breaking my fat behind :)

If TA is what you want to do - keep at it, you'll be surprised how quickly the time will go - do the volunteer work in the school, you'll enjoy it, there will be less pressure, it may well give you the push to really go for it.

Juggling, you are right, it was Nelson Mandela - and he was a very wise man :)

The OU have a course, but you need to be working in a primary school