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new thread folks.....im losing track but i think this might be our 7th!

all welcome. old and new. This is a supportive place for anyone suffering with any type of mental health issue.

im on Sertraline (ADs) and have been since last December. I had 6 months off work with depression and anxiety and the ladies on these threads kept me going.

Feel free to post, to comment, to ask questions, or just to lurk and feel less alone.
everyone in the village is lovely.

No need to apologise dasher we've all been there - and often still are! Can you give yourself a reward for going in? Or plan a cosy eve in front of tv/book after? Brilliant you're planning to see your GP

lem I was helping with our school fair too - it leaves a big gap doesn't it? I'm trying to get a few house projects done - not the cleaning type, but getting a couple of paintings framed, sorting out ds wardrobe - one of those a day to give a bit of structure, some exercise, and sometimes meeting friend for coffee, plus some downtime.

Good for you hoochy for being open about why you were off and re: work! I have been selective, and cos I wasn't working didn't need to be so open... It's great that you're going to meet a friend. Try not to put too much pressure on yourself, go and have a drink, a listen and a chat if you feel like it.

Right. Just in from cold damp foggy walk for 35 mins. Face still glowing . So coffee, some cooking and a painting to frame... I think part of how I'm feeling is hormonal (again, sorry broken record) pre-ovulation tiredness, headache, feeling bit run down. Hormonal contraception doesn't agree with the women in my family, so might go off and post in general health for suggestions that are compatible with Prozac! At least that takes away the rage and dark depression pre-menstrually

Anyway, enough waffling.... hope everyone's keeping cosy x

Hi all

Hey Vicar did you see that "Vicar In a Tutu" came up on Only Connect on Monday night - we always watch that together and try to guess the connections
They had a series of pieces of music which included different ranks of clergy like "Pachelbel's Canon" and "Vicar In A Tutu"

• Made me think of you and all Mumsnetters

Fit to work note runs out today... had 2 and a bit weeks off... going to doctors this afternoon to ask for a bit longer. Work phoned this morning and left a message asking if i will be in tomorrow or not. They need to arrange cover but as soon as i heard the message i burst into tears. On day 6 of Setraline. Not sure if it's working or not? Definitely slept better last night but that might have been the 3 glasses of wine...

I went to art therapy, last one before Christmas. I managed to talk about what is going on at the moment. Realistically, I'm not great. I have a psychotherapy assessment next week instead. Not sure how to feel about that.

Thinking of everyone.

I like the sound of art therapy SnowyMouse. Sounds relaxing... unlike my CBT which seems to leave me an emotional wreck..

I think i might escape into a good book today... let myself forget my own life for abit.

snowy I'm so pleased for you that you went to art therapy, and that you managed to talk about things. In spite of what it may feel like now, you have taken another step along the road.

To you and to all those who feel like they are missing out on their own lives - you may be surprised at how much you can enjoy retrospectively. You'll see that your kids were happy because they knew they were loved :) or you'll notice how much you achieved when you thought at the time you were doing nothing :)

Lovely post sparkly and very true. We are often our own harshest critics eh.

Have had a Lovely morning, took lots of foggy pics, then went for breakfast. What a treat.

Just got in from Buddhist study group, going to have a quick soak and then school run. So far so good.

I missed the post about school runs earlier (so many lovely people on here, having trouble with all the names, I'll get there but my memory not the best ATM). But it made me chuckle , they either opened up and related their own stories or never spoke to you again!!

Sorry to hear about people suffering. Baby steps are helping me. Little things are triumphs for me right now.

Love xx

I have done another good thing, messaged most of my friends to ask for their addresses for Christmas cards, as I've lost my list It gives me something to distract myself with too.

Yay to Christmas cards. Mine arrived in the post this morning so I need to write and post those too. Maybe this eve...

I have emailed my bosses to make them aware of my situation. Weirdly, I avoided using the word 'depression' because somehow I feel like that is a monumental label to put on myself, so I hope I made sense and they don't assume I'm just a bit tired/run down. Maybe I should have been more blunt. Feeling anxious waiting for a respnse and half expecting to be told I'm talking a load of bollocks, excuses excuses.

I'm not going to the work meeting but I struggled and forced myself to send some documents in. Hate letting people down so I felt that I had to contribute in some way for not turning up, but I got tired even reading the work and cried several times. It's all out there now though.

I got a shower, brushed my teeth, did a bit of work, ate some fruit. Even that feels like such a massive achievement. GPs tomorrow I think. Why waste another day being miserable. Bored of myself now!

Christmas cards, good idea. I've got some wrapping to do.

compensate, not contribute.

Well I was prevaricating about starting the new antidepressant...my CPN has said she will get it from the pharmacy and bring it to me tomorrow No excuses. My mood is between 2 and 4 or 5 out of 10.

It sounds like you've had a productive day, OnDasherrorOnDancerror - good luck with the GP tomorrow.

It sounds like you're having a good day, Nancy

How's everyone else doing?

Gosh - what a whirlwind of new faces, i hope you all become residents in our little village - wonders if it is turning into a town now?

I am struggling today - felt crap all day really, had a cry about my dog that died TEN YEARS AGO How daft, i still miss him, he was DP and my first together dog and he really cemented our relationship, i remember the long walks, just me DP and the dog planning our lives together. It seems its all gone a bit pants since he died. It did co-incide with my dad getting alzheimers. Good things have happened since - other dogs, we now have two lovely little JRTs, when i was crying today one of them sat at my feet and growled to get my attention then jumped up on my lap and actually gave me a cuddle, he put both paws around my neck and just buried his head - it was like he was saying "its ok mum" he was looking at the picture of the first dog.

My mum is being really shite - i went round there today and she was awful, told me she had already walked the dog and not to bother going to the shops for her. For the first time i felt upset rather than angry - i want my mum to be my bloody mum - ask ME how i am feeling, she knows about my mental health issues but shes not interested. Shes not interested in me, or DDs. Just found out that DD1 is coming to town - she didn't say she was visiting so i don't know if she is coming to me or gong to her nans. I just hope that my mum doesn't fill her head full of shit about how i am not helping her and how crap the doctor is, oh and how i thnk more of the doctor than i do her!! Honestly, you could not make it up. My dad isn't here any more and i don't have any brothers an sisters. I DO have two beautiful DD's and a wonderful, understanding and supportive DP but sometimes i feel so lonely

Sorry, very self absorbed today :(

Glad the Art therapy went well snowy - glad you went, that must have been hard - good for you xx

Not self-absorbed LEM, it's good to vent. Your dogs sound lovely! I'm sorry things are hard with your Mum. Big hugs! xx

Oh heck. A couple of my friends are sharing a video about depression - likening it to a black dog. I just watched it - some of that rings true for me, some days.

Shoot.

It's not all the time though, so it can't be depression, right? Depression is constant, surely? I think it's a fair bet I've got a bit of anxiety going on, but I can't be depressed, can I? I had a brilliant weekend, was feeling really happy.

I think I need to see my GP - but how do I broach it with my family (who I live with, and would need their help to get to the surgery). They constantly tell me "you worry too much", they'll probably say the same thing if I mention it.

Best keeping quiet for a bit, I think. Sorry, just rambling on, need to get my head clear (literally - I've still got this stupid cold!)

Do you have to tell them why you want to visit the GP?

Mum and gran (who I live with, along with my uncle) are both nurses - if they can treat stuff without a doctor, they will. This is generally a useful thing, but in this case, not so much.

I might approach my gran in the morning - my mum is more "just deal with it, it's life" and probably wouldn't understand as much.

I seem to overeat for comfort - maybe if my mind was sorted, the body would follow, eh?

I've seen the black dog video too Lollipop, it was a bit of an awakening for me. Along with reading the 'Hyperbole and a Half' blog posts about the author's struggle with depression. I could have written parts of it myself. Certainly in my case it took some outside perspective to realise how bad things were getting. It's not like I enjoyed existing this way, but because I've known no other way for quite some time, it's easy to believe there isn't a way out of it. Unless you have some sort of epiphany moment or other people around you notice.

Hyperbole and a Half

Adventures in Depression

Depression Part 2

One of the symptoms of depression, strange as it may seem, can be not knowing you've got it. Sometimes it masquerades as thinking you are facing the 'reality' that 'life is shit'. Haven't seen the actual vid, but it has appeared on my FB feed from two friends I know through mh involvement work.

Am at my end - my bloody mother has gone too fucking far, she pretty much tried to turn my DD against me - DD was horrible to me at my mother's house but to be fair turned up half hour later in floods of tears saying that she had been bending her ear for ages about "everything" the fact that i don't help her probably at the top of her list. I felt sick when i walked out of my mothers house and actually contemplated walking "the other way" which i haven't thought about for a while. In the end it worked out to be a nice evening, DD came round and played chess with DD2, me and DP. She was really upset.

Oh dear LEM just as you feared. But it sounds like you resolved things?

I have seen the black dog video. I thought it was good, esp for people who have no experience of depression.

Personally my depression only rears its ugly head every few years. And it isn't constant as such Lollipop. Even when I am depressed I can have better moments. For me it's a grey area.

How did it go with your CPN Snowy?

Feel like I am coming down with something today, so not quite as bright.

Today's to-do list: mark those books I need to take back to school, write Christmas cards (still not done), download and begin 3 job applications. I know it will take several applications and interviews to get what I want so I figure I may as well start.

I looked after my nephew for an hour this morning (just turned one). Had forgotten the constant watching and stimulating. Hard work.

How is everyone this morning?

Im really not doing well at all :( I'm losing it

I am just all over the place this morning - i don't know what to do - she rang my phone but i made DP answer it and say i wasn't back from school run So now i know she is expecting me to call back. She sounded nice as pie, i almost wish she would phone and be shit. I was going to not go there today but i am just gong to make things worse.

I actually feel sick and am losing my grip on reality - i keep seeing my dad out of the corner of my eye and its freaking me out. Part of me just wants her to fuck off and leave me the fuck alone and the other (the part that will win) just wants to keep the peace and carry on as normal. If i bring things to a head now i am going to ruin christmas and the ones who suffer will be my DDs.

DD1 said for me to go visit her today but i honestly don't feel well enough.

Can you not just say you are not well enough for a visit LEM?

You know the saying, if you don't look after yourself you certainly can't look after others and sounds like you have plenty of others to look after...

It's not easy keeping the peace with difficult people LEM, give yourself some credit. Would that be a start ? x

You don't have to visit today, would another day be better?

(((( LEM )))) (((( everyone ))))