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new thread folks.....im losing track but i think this might be our 7th!

all welcome. old and new. This is a supportive place for anyone suffering with any type of mental health issue.

im on Sertraline (ADs) and have been since last December. I had 6 months off work with depression and anxiety and the ladies on these threads kept me going.

Feel free to post, to comment, to ask questions, or just to lurk and feel less alone.
everyone in the village is lovely.

I've been OK the past few days - pretty content.

It's my birthday today and everyone at work chipped in and got me a mug and a scarf - that's made me REALLY happy, I must be likeable after all haha :)

thanks snowy x

Happy Birthday Lollipop! have some

I'm verging on another breakdown.

I know I am.

I can't stop myself spiralling into it.

Im sleeping 4-5hrs a night.

Im off my food. I'm gagging with nausea.

Im forgettinh meds.

I'm getting shakier by the day.

I need a weekend yo reset myself..but it's only Monday.

I cant climb off.

Tomorrow is my worst prep day (I'm in class 4hrs/5)

Weds is my worst teaching day...and I have no time torrow to prepare....

This week is not going to end well.

(((hugs))) Ed really sorry to hear you're struggling this week.
Is there anything at all you can face eating? Have you got an alarm clock you can set for your meds?

But more importantly have you got anyone irl you can share this with - at home, or even at school? Worth a phonecall to your GP / MH worker if you have one?

Teaching is seriously hard work. Is there anything anyone else can help with? Are you able to find something pre-prepped you can re-use?

I really hope you got some sleep last night and are surviving today. Thinking of you.

I'm just back from counselling and from a scientific/intellectual perspective I'm finding it quite interesting. I walked in quite sprightly having just done some yoga. Walked out through treacle, stumbling a bit, not able to think straight and feeling like lead. Talking about anger. And about how it seems my brain in order to protect me, starts to block out something upsetting/anger-making. Its not til later I process it fully and feel the emotions - but by then its often too late to respond... Also trying to encourage me to think about what would happen if I did get angry at the moment and responded - I simply couldn't think. So having to reorganise my day as will have to do planned errands later as feeling so debilitated. But am hoping this means I'm tackling something important.

Belated happy birthday LollipopViolet

Oh no Ed, big hugs. Is there anything you can take for your sleep, that might help you cope with other things. My team are forever saying how important sleep is. Keeping you in my thoughts.

Hi snowy yes the sleep thing is interesting. I'm sure I read recently that scientists are starting to understand how important it is - ie certain processes and chemical stuff takes places in the brain when we sleep which have positive effects on mental health.

I'm off to make some soup now... (or rather, heat up some soup )

Enjoy the soup, I've just had a pret baguette, I went into town to get my haircut for Christmas, a good 1-2" off.

Oh good for you. I always feel lighter for a haircut.
Off to run some errands and get DCs. See ya later

Yes, my head feels lighter

I'm at a level 3

How's everyone else doing?

Dear edwinasarevenge

If you are feeling this way is there any way you can get help? I am also a teacher, feeling v stressed in all areas of my life (esp work) and have just started on fluoxetine. I have taken 2 days off work as the side effects are making me more anxious (I know these will wear off but I needed some time.

And that is my point, I am the type to go to work even if my head is hanging off but in this instance I just didn't want to put myself through it.

Can you do the same?

Best wishes

snowy level 3

Hi Nancy

Welcome Nancy

Snowy at level 3!! Well DONE snowy, that is bloody brilliant, brilliant i tell ya! :)

Ed you probably know about this already but do you use the TES website? When i was up against it at the college that literally saved my bacon - some of the lesson plans were really good, some had some corkers in them! This is the very reason i decided against teaching as i just didn't want to do it enough to put in every hour god sends - although i hear after the first year it settles down, but then they seem to move the goal posts all the time so who knows. I keep forgetting my meds and im feeling like shit because of it.

Will post more later - love to all x

The working hours and the stress not the TES website!

Thanks LEM
Hope you're doing ok?

Yeah, although felt flat today - im not really sure why, it could be that i keep forgetting my meds!! Just getting irritated with people and taking slights where they are probably not intended. Have the feeling of wanting to have some time alone - so maybe i will take myself off somewhere tomorrow, maybe a bike ride or one of my epic dog walks (i have been doing seven miles just for the sake of it so that i can get to the woods away from people). But on the whole i feel ok.

Oh dear LEM, definitely important to take your meds. I hope you enjoy your ride or walk, sounds like a good way to handle those feelings.

I'm so well these days that I sometimes forget to take meds for a while. The effect is subtle, but definite, and eventually I think 'maybe I should be taking my meds' (only 20 mg paroxatine). And having started them again, I realised anew (for the umpteenth time) that even that small dose just helps keep me tip-top :)

I do need to do some exercise though.

Hi all thanks for making me welcome.

LEM you are right about goal post moving. Every year I feel like I've finally cracked it, only to have yet another responsibility plonked on my lap and results expectations that are just out of this world.

Back to work tomorrow. Two days have done me good. Wish me luck!

Ed hope you feeling better soon.

im in some shit.

me and hubby had serious cat last night.

stated off by have i got news for you.

john prescott and bulimia-to whih hubby said he was just attention seeking and dident really have.To which i explianed bulimics can be all shapes and sizes.

Then hesays look i rember you used to do it before you met me as u told me.

I know you been down latly and jyst kind stupid thing u do again.

promise me on kids lives u wont do it.
to which i said no its just silly i dont do it anymore.

Not sure that he knows.
beived my lies or not.

I couldnet promise on kids lives that i hadent done it or that i wouldent do it as feel like im not so in control.

latly its every day.
nearly always followed after sweet binges.

but yesterday was bad day 3times one after pizza.

also being sick when kids and hubby are in thee house,

e said he wouldent be angry but im scared,

i havent reached weightloss goal.
im not underweight.
he thinks its just about weight,
i cantmake promises i cannot keep right ow i cant promise not to stop.
Im scred people find out.

im not sure if gp any use as met mate tonight who enlighted me on shite lift pychology courses and dot tink they would be of help.
Im not underweight. just dont see right now how to get out of hole im in.

hqad baad day todAY cars playing up, lost boot, scool tour for scool applications tressig me out, cupboard fell on top of me in ktchen everything cme out, cacelled brownie and hamsetr that looks like death hoping week improves soon.
ate very little today but had few drinks and hd low al meal with mate.
not weighed myself i 2weeks.

3 I know so little about this, I wish I could help. Does it really matter if your DH is angry for a short while if you decide to tell him - it would only be out of concern for you (I hope and trust this is true) If this goes on I know you run the risk of damaging your oesophagus or the stomach sphincter.

You've had a similar problem before, yes? What happened then, how did things come to improve?

Thanks sontaren.

Yes suffered in the past in school and uni.

been fine for last 10years just this year has been so stressful for our family I ave slipped back into old ways.

I have had help for depression in past in uni was on anti ds and seeing uni counseller but never had any specific treatment or official diagnosis of eating disorder although it was obvious in uni and people knew.

I dont want him knowing as he will make me promise to stop and cant keep to that promise and its my only vice im not heavy drinker, I dont smoke and the gp wont prescribe valuim

Apologies for bad typos /spelling errors was late last night.

well the hamsters still alive.
hubbys grumpy as hes says hes not getting enough attention and affection but i was out last niht very rare night out and he was asleep last night and kids had jumped into my side of bed so no room for me.
Hes working all day back about 9 as seeing his mum

I have housework.
ring agents of broken cupboard
pm school run after school club so dark walk home.
book another school tour.

wil try stay calm positive and busy and distract myself from being sick.

3 what meds are you on atm? Could you talk to your GP?

Would hubby support you anyway, how can anyone make a promise about something like this? It's an indication you aren't well, not a lifestyle choice.

((hugs to all))

Derealization has kicked in really bad since yesterday. I don't know why though as I wasn't that anxious and it usually only happens when the anxiety is sky high

It just feels horrible going on with everyday things when you feel so out of touch with everything and like you're barely there at all. I haven't told anyone in RL as I never know how to explain it and they've all got their own stuff going on. I'm just hoping it goes away soon.

Is there anyone you can talk to, 3 ? Sorry you're struggling, orchard. Is there anything grounding you can do?

I've got two hours to kill between art therapy and my group this afternoon, sitting in the canteen with a cup of tea