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new thread folks.....im losing track but i think this might be our 7th!

all welcome. old and new. This is a supportive place for anyone suffering with any type of mental health issue.

im on Sertraline (ADs) and have been since last December. I had 6 months off work with depression and anxiety and the ladies on these threads kept me going.

Feel free to post, to comment, to ask questions, or just to lurk and feel less alone.
everyone in the village is lovely.

((((lem))))

Your posts about your dd always show the depth of your love for her. I really believe that is the most important thing. She would be devastated if you weren't her mummy at home with her, whatever we tell ourselves when we're feeling shit, they would rather we were there.

Take care, rest, sleep if you can and hang in there.

Thank you - I do love my DDs very much. Had a really horrible day, rowed with DP and just felt like crap, I have been forgetting my meds so i think that may be behind it somewhat. We did have a lovely walk along the beach with DD and the dogs. There is a skate park so we hung out with the dudes which was funny because they looked an intimidating bunch at first but were actually really nice kids, with nerves of steel and stupidly expensive scooters! DDog2 chased the ravens on the beach and we thought we lost him, hes small and stone coloured and the tide was out!

The row was because i freaked out as they cut our phone off due to us not paying the bill - we always forget, DP thought it was because i couldnt get online but it wasn't that, i had my phone - it was because at the slightest sign of financial worries i go into meltdown and the phone bill is always a big thing for me - its stupid, but thats how anxiety works, blows things all out of proportion. Have sort of made up with DP but i think he has something on his mind, he was actually a bastard today and that is unlike him. I think my state of mind gets him down sometimes.

Anyway, enough enough enough!!! How are all of you guys?

Oh that sounds like a tough day x. Time with the dudes sounds cool tho

I'm sat on sofa a bit worse for wine half watching jonathon ross... dh gone to bed. Just about in control of the im a crap mum thoughts as dd having sleepover at friends and cos I didnt check what she packed with her she forgot loads inc her fav nighttime cuddly toy and her friends dad had to drive down to get it. Ok day, but not a lot of fun for me. And tomorrow I have to do a supermarket run cos dh and dcs plans on fri meant I didn't have time. Anyhow boring domestic stuff basically x

More ((( LEM ))), and ((( CiQ )))

I'm trying to work out whether to take another antidepressant, my psychiatrist thinks I should, but I think the side effects I get already are too much. I really don't know what to do.

LEM

LEM you say 'we forget' - but how do you decide who actually pays the phone bill each month?

CIQ forgetting an important cuddly, and then having it arrive is a good thing to happen for DD :) a) the joy of reunion this time and b) increased likelihood of remembering next time.

snowy are you just on one med? Any evidence of relation between side effects and dose? I would suggest doing what psych suggests for an agreed period of time, while keeping situation under constant review.

Hugs to Lem as well. Hope today was better.

Today was weird. I had a reaction to something on TV - watching ER. A person who was in the exact same position I am in came in. It ended with her on the roof, hating her life. I thought she would be safe but she jumped I reacted really badly to it - it takes a lot on TV to do that to me but that really got to me.

Hope this week is better. Told my sister what's going on by email.

Thanks sontaran thats a really good way of looking at it. Have you been cbt-ing?

Thanks snowy hmm sounds like a tricky decision. Could you give the new one a trial period?

lem how's your day been?

Ok day. Period arrived which makes more sense of fri and Sat. Have eaten a LOT of choc and choc cake but hey ho.

Night all x

NLP - reframing we call it

Sympathies orlando that sounds v upsetting. Sometimes tv can be too close to the mark. Hope yr feeling a bit better soon.

Kill me now.... My beautiful dad had a stroke today & yep u guessed it I can't cope with it!!!!!!

Am sorry to hear about your Dad DumDum
and about the upsetting programme Orlando

• It's so hard when life dumps something else in your lap isn't it, when you were already finding it tough beforehand x

I already take two meds, Sontaran I might ask what side effects people get. I try not to watch triggering tv , but it can be hard to tear yourself away.
I hope your dad gets better soon DumDum, it must be hard

I've just had a sobering conversation with my CPN. The crisis team are going to be brought into the CMHT, and CMHT is going to be split into an assessment team and a treatment team. Nobody knows which clinicians are going where, and I will be under the treatment team. I don't want to lose my psychiatrist or my CPN.

Reminds me of when they changed to CMHTs from being based on client's location to being either psychosis or affective disorder specialist (at least round here). People with bi-polar didn't know which team they'd be going to. But I must say after a muddled start it settled down OK.

Doubt and uncertainty - not good for MH. Did you decide whether to up your med for a bit?

Dumdum so sorry to hear about your DF. How is he?

I'm going to ask more about meds on Wednesday I think. Thinking of you DumDum

I'm sure it will settle, Sontaran, thanks. Interesting to see how they split it, as not everyone has a diagnosis, at least to start with.

Dumdum I'm sorry to hear your news - you will cope because you have to but you must come on here and vent whenever you need to.

TSP - by "forget" i mean, putting it off til the last minute I think we are going to find a new provider as BT are too expensive. I don't know why it stresses me out so much.

We had a lovely day yesterday, went to rochester castle and xmas market - was lovely and DP chilled out a bit more. Turns out he keeps getting a "spaced out" feeling and its been bothering him, of course he is being a man and refuses to go to the doctors :( So theres another thing i can worry about then! But generally feeling a bit better.

Orlando, thats horrible about the TV program but these things have to go with the more dramatic conclusions, in reality most times, people get the help they need. Its horrible when triggers happen though, my fear is trains or rather me walking out in front of one - it happened three times in one year here (not me obviously!) and it really plays on my mind, its horrible. I do manage to kick the thoughts out of my head now - literally have been known to lean over and tap the side of my head and tell them to get out, stupid but actually works

Snowy - that is pants :( Not sure they should have said anything until it was definate.

Lem Your days sounds nice.

I belong to a group with a very high suicide and attempted suicide rate. The person on TV articulated everything I have been feeling and sometimes its only the thought of DS that has stopped me.

I too have to kick the thoughts out of my head. It can be hard - the person on the show articulated everything I think and feel about myself.

They explained because I asked, LEM: a friend who is under the same CMHT (but different consultant), has just had her consultant changed, so I was wanting to know if the same thing was going to happen to me. The day I left hospital they were changing the hospital based consultants around, so I just escaped that. I think it would be worse if it just suddenly happened, particularly with all the hearsay flying about from other patients.

That sounds like a lovely day, LEM Sorry your DP is having issues too.

Oh, Snowy, it's not worth worrying until it all changes, and, you never know, it may work out ok for you, my lovely

Hey cool skater girl Lem do you really need a landline? I lot of people just have mobiles now,the deals are better. Oo, I used to live near Rochester, it is sooo lovely at this time of year.

Lots of love to you, Dum dum it may have just brought stuff to the surface for you, silly telly! when my dh was newly diagnosed with ms, my daughter saw this waterloo rd episode where a teacher newly diagnosed ended her life, it upset her for months..

Feel headachey and tired today, with sadness just under the surface. DPiL due this evening for food could go either way!

Have a lovely evening, much love, and to all reading

Oops, silly me, I meant the telly stuff for orlando and the love and sympathy for dum dum, it's the meds, honest!

I hope it will, hoochy - this psychiatrist has been my doctor since I became very unwell.

Hugs hoochy, I hope your sadness and tiredness and headache all go away, fingers crossed for your meal this evening.

lem your sunday sounds great. Hope you're doing ok tonight.

Sympathies dumdum I hope he's being well looked after and is soon on the road to recovery.

snowy that sounds unsettling. Hope it works out ok.

Hi hoochy hope your evening goes ok and you get a good sleep.

Doing ok this evening tho washed out but just women's stuff!

take care all

Women's stuff isn't good CIQ I hope it settles soon.