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[ThatVikRinA22]

new thread folks.....im losing track but i think this might be our 7th!

all welcome. old and new. This is a supportive place for anyone suffering with any type of mental health issue.

im on Sertraline (ADs) and have been since last December. I had 6 months off work with depression and anxiety and the ladies on these threads kept me going.

Feel free to post, to comment, to ask questions, or just to lurk and feel less alone.
everyone in the village is lovely.

Juggling that's really interesting! I'm going to take a look now.

LEM what did you used to do?

I used to be a scientist milkhell, i loved it, but it moves on so quickly and i was also stupidly specialised and there is nothing in my area. I do some voluntary work for a friend but the anxiety prevents that alot of the time.

I have friends who are Quakers, one believes in light I think.

I've got a physical hospital appointment tomorrow, not looking forward to it , then a psych appointment Tuesday

Once a scientist, always a scientist, LEM

Good to hear how well you're doing Ed.

On the subject of hospital, I have always found talking to other patients to be the best thing about it, and helpful. I was hypomanic though, each time, so my experience may not be relevant. And I was always glad I was a smoker, it passed the time and even the shyer smokers would have a bit of a chat

Unfortunately the physical stuff is very rare, so few people to talk to. Ah well, it will be over soon. Def agree re: mental health, talking to other patients helps!

I like your new name, Sontaran

Oh a scientist! Very analytical then? Rational? Not religious...

The Quakers look really interesting. I'm sending off for an info pack. I'm off to a Spiritualist church tonight...went a few weeks ago and I just thought it odd. I'll report back.

I was wondering if you ladies could help me with something. I need a lot of reassurance and I'm having some troubling symptoms related I think to the anxiety and depression but it's really scaring me and I was wondering if anyone had similar.

I sometimes feel like I'm talking from a void. Like I'm not even sure how the words are coming out of my mouth in any logical order but they are. It feels like I'm not me. I look in the mirror and the reflection seems strange.

It feels like my life is on a knife edge between death and it feels 'funny' being a human. My mind wants to work it out but I can't. I also feel like I'm 'going mad' a lot of the time as I can only ruminate about these feelings.

Is this depression?

I agree re: smoking, only place to chat without staff.

Milk that sounds like dissociation. It's like you separate the 'real you' off - your brain does this to try and keep you safe, though that may not actually be its best strategy. It cuts you off from your feelings, so they don't overwhelm you.

In NLP, we would suggest thanking the part that is trying to protect you, and asking the creative part to find some other ways to protect you that might work better. Then get the protective part to try one of those ways for a bit.

I am ( was) a biochemist milkgell. Am very interested in quantum physics just now but strangely enough the more I read/ learn about the universe the stronger my beliefs. Unfortunately a recent experience has shattered my faith in organised religeon but I cannot believe a world so complex just is

What you describe sounds very much like me when things were bad. I couldn't understand how people I knew recognised me, I felt like a non entity.quite scary

I'm a sort of scientist too - but am sort of spiritual as well - mainly takes the form of trusting in, and wondering at, the universe.

Can I have a little moan? My bottom left wisdom tooth is partially erupted, and over the past 3 days it's once again been making a bid for freedom. It HURTS! Hoping it goes away soon :(

That's interesting scientists!

I feel like I've got not personality and have no idea who I an anymore. It's petrifying :-(

Ugh tooth pain!

Am

Don't mention teeth! I'm trying to hang on to the few genuine ones I've got left. BabyBoomer teeth... before flouride in the water, and unlimited sweets in my childhood...

I'm a complete dental phobic, so I am not loving this situation, I will be honest.

On a happier note - 2 days at work, then I get to take my first steps into this new friendship group I've been told about :) Excited, but nervous too, think I might give them a ring when I get into town so they'll come meet me and I don't have to walk in on my lonesome. For some reason, I really don't fancy doing that, and I'm normally OK with going to new places.

Thanks for being so nice and encouraging about my Quaker post everyone

• am especially pleased that you're interested enough to send off for some more info Milk - personally I think you'll find them sounder, and more grounded, than the Spiritualists (but I would say that, wouldn't I?) Will be interested to hear what you make of both (if you decide to try a Quaker Meeting too)

Well went again to the Spiritualist church. Was an absolute farce - no other word for it really! I was embarrassed on the medium's behalf.

There is a 'Quaker Mount' near where I live and it's stunning. The meeting point is only 5 mins from me :-)

Morning all,

Ahhhh smoking I really don't know where I would be without it. It's the only thing to so that passes time inside hospital :)

I'm still at home - yippy so at least for today no more talk of hospital :)

Hope u all have a great day! Will pop by later to read up on the rest of thread if my voices permit!

morning all.

ive been a bit awol....but ive got some time off work now so will pop in between the new puppy and trying to decorate 2 bedrooms at the same time!

feeling a bit better about things now - funnily on my last shift at work the bully queen bee was having a go about something and was stood behind me bitching with another female staff member...there was another lad in the office whom she tried to get to join in and he wasnt having it - when they went out he sidled up to me and basically confirmed that i am being bullied.
the day before in a meeting she had done the same thing - started having a very public go at me - supervisor got up and sat down at our table and sat with crossed arms - she carried on for a while until she noticed - he said "oh i thought you were running this today. carry on" which i think embarrassed her a bit.
he told me later to have a go back but also agreed its not really in my make up to do that.
not sure what the answer it really.

anyway - ive booked time off - had enough of it for a while so am concentrating on home. DS has got a job back up north - he is moving back in next weekend. I am glad he is coming back up north but not so glad that he is moving in here - sounds awful but he stresses me out. He came home last week for hte interview and within 30 seconds of walking in told me he had left his suitcase (with his interview suit in) on the train which was now speeding towards Aberdeen......
had to sort all that out. buy him new clothes for interview, find the case, sort out getting it couriered back.....stress stress and stress.

ive told him that i am very very glad he is coming back closer to home but ive also said that while he is welcome home anytime i would like him to start taking steps to find his own place in the new year - or when he has paid off his debts....i love him dearly but i cant live with him for long.

im sat here while the oven clean man is making my oven sparkle. Then this pm im going to go and treat myself to a new mascara and moisturiser (yep. welcome to my life! lol)

new pup is getting his second jabs weds so we can take him out soon. Im also at dentist weds.....but just for a clean and polish/checkup....going to start bleaching my teeth again i think.

right. thats my essay done with......

juggling i am really interested in Quaker philosophy.....i am desperate to go to a retreat and a quaker one would be great for me. i wonder if you could help me find one near to me? i keep meaning to start looking into quaker meetings but i suspect there wont be any where i live....

good luck with the appointments snowy....

big hellos and waves to everyone else....best go and find something to do housework wise though im fighting a losing battle while 2 of the bedrooms are upside down.....why is it when you decorate one room the entire house goes to rack and ruin?
x

Hi Vicar, I'm sure you'd enjoy a Quaker retreat ... let me see ... Woodbrooke is our Quaker Study Centre in Birmingham, and set in a beautiful garden with lake and woodland - was the old home of the Cadbury family. They have a wonderful array of weekend courses and retreats and a great brochure (you can ask for from the website, or read details online) Charney Manor is another Quaker place that looks promising for a quiet weekend away, just outside Oxford I believe - looks gorgeous (must go one day) Am sure it will also have an esy to find website (via google, sorry about no links)
Our general website at quaker.org.uk will tell you more about Quakers in general and help you find the Meeting House nearest to you.
(Since everyone is so kind as to keep asking me about it !)
Hope you all have a good day and week.
I have two interviews this week, on Wednesday and Friday - so I think would be good to have a job before Christmas if possible (though a little nervous about the whole prospect) Anyway, get the job first and then worry about doing it hey!!

I hope the voices leave you alone DD32 Good luck with the decorating and puppy vicar. I hope your tooth stops hurting Lollipop

Hugs to everyone

I'm sitting waiting in hospital

Hope everyone is managing.

Hope you're OK too snowy x

sorry to gate crash your thread.
have been on and off the MH boards for a long time,
as a result of my disturbing dreams I have had a look at what I am doing and realised that I am not coping.

I feel lost. I have a lovely family a safe house to live in, I ave lots to be grateful for. and yet I can't function.
I do the school run come home and get back into bed until pcik up in the afternoon.
I make food for the boys look after them but asap I get back to bed to hide from the world.
I am curretnly taking 40 mg citalopram so cant up it.

So twhat has changed? my children have moved schools. I had built a group of friends, a life, a role, helping in school 2 days a week and being chair of the PTA. That is it.. gone. I have no role in life. I am lost.
My weight has gone up by a stone and I was already overweight.

I can get myself out of this but I have no idea how or where to start.

Sorry for the very self indulgent post If anyone has any wet fish to slap me with I would appreciate it.