Thanks colouring queen trying to get through each day and ensure each childs where they meant to be on time, well cared for and fed just about managing that but was 20mins late monday am.
Its the 2 younger ones if they play up enroute or we leave slightly late we doomed.
School have no idea. we pay £2 a day breckfast club so just asked if she could do 4days a week this term and they had spare places.
They know hubbys got new job thats about it.
They have no control over admisions so cant help there.
Have spoken to childminders as only way can logisticaly do 2schools.
The last month been piles of washing everywhere.
Think landlord coming look at fire, shed and garden gate so will make sure hoovered and any clutter n cupboard and run round withe air freshener and hoping man can fix my washing machine.
well managed brownie run and shops in dark with 2 kiddies they had chips and hubbys picking up eldest from brownies.
I washed up and hoovered downstairs.
made all the beds
school run takes hour each way.kids noramally fine unless they tired, its very ol or its raining hnece why think need double and better coat for me.
Need to inform nursery she will be staying for time being as gives me a slight break.
applied tax credits nearly 8weeks ago they not paid.
Its great hubbys working again and can understand why he does not wnat people to know. hes got his appeal with old employer next week as week as well as taking hims mum to dentist on his only day off.
my little boy keeps kissing and cuddling me which cheers me up.
Im ok if all 3 dont kick off at same time .
i do intend to meet up with couple freinds for drinks when next can .
Our 9year wedding anniversary end of october was dire we havent been out as couple in so long.
Im still stressy on rds since sept when speeding mum from another school nearly mowed down my 4year old at school crossing.
I was on zopliclone for sleep got couple left.
got temazapam yesterday as been on it before and thinking be more effective.
Im resisting anti ds.edwinas revenge greats its working for you.
its only anti d i was on in quite high dose and changed me did some silly things, used to get memory loss and even more down on it.
I used the temazapam as downer in uni as feltrelly odd and restless on venlafaxine.Then when i tried to come off it got the shakes really bad withdrawal. But my gp back then was not the best and handed out drugs like they smarties.
New gps seem funny about sleeping pills and are limiting prescriptions.
They also say i could talk , havent got the time, not sure im ready.
I know anti ds are an option and there are others just feel weary.
I need to function and still be me,Im not sure pills will help with the eating issues.
So much harder being ill with family least back then only persons life I could screw up was my own.
I dont know how realistic im being or if things will improve I know its stress related and trying minimise stress and keep drugs and booze to min..
Might have soak in bath tonight as joined the princessing tread on beauty.I thourght having hair done other week might give me a boost but not keen on it