health anxiety

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has anybody ever found a cure for health anxiety. it has plagued my life for 7 years and don't see an end to it. awful day today.
ps never been on mumsnet before. sorry if this is the wrong place to raise this.

having a wobble again , saw something on tv about lung C , coughing up blood in flem ....frightened me and throat still sore ...but better than was on monday ...but still not normal ...
still worried something bad is going on ....

got my chest x ray tuesday then the camera thing following tuesday , what if after these ABs i still not back normal ?
sorry just feeling bit low tonight ....just want to feel well again ..
and stop this worrying ......

Severe HA sufferer here. Also GAD. And PND. Happy fellow me...

Anyway I'm getting a brain scan. Do all HA sufferers eventually reach this rather dark place? When all that's left the scan is your actual brain?

I saw a lovely consultant privately who was so kind and nice that he helped put my fears about a brain tumor to rest. He also gave me. Follow up NHS appointment.

It's very hard but I find it easier when I'm out and about. Lying in bed is the worst time, meaning I sleep badly, then feel shit and then start worrying.

I was thinking about my HA this morning and I'm surprised I don't actually go to the doctors more!! I think rationally it know there's nothing wrong and that keeps me going. Plus I tend to keep things inside anyway.

Glad you found a nice consultant to help and listen , health anx is horrid i can wake up be ok , then something will trigger me, on tv or in magazine or someone talking about someone ...sets me off , i don't now buy magazines or papers , and if someone starts to walkabout someone will illness i stop them and say i cant hear it un less good out come ....and i switch of if on tv ...i can't now watch coronation st because of the storyline with H , just set me off again , .....how or when or what has made my brain now react like this ?.....i never used to be like this .....will i ever see things differently ........
anyone els get this to ....

i meant talk about and with illness ..oops

choc when I was at my worst I thought everything was a sign. So if someone was collecting money in the street for eg ovarian cancer then I'd convince myself there was a reason why I was in that place at that time and saw that person, and it must mean I had the illness, and one day I'd be telling people about my diagnosis and saying 'it was only when I was in the shopping centre and saw the lady collecting and she had a leaflet with symptoms, and that's when I suspected...' etc. Same if I saw a magazine or newspaper article, or something on tv. Of course, it didn't have to be ovarian cancer, could have been anything.

Like you, I don't buy newspapers or magazines, just to be on the safe side. Well, I buy magazines about home decor, or craft or something, things where I can be sure I won't see the C word

comfort to know I'm not only one , i look at front cover and see first but i generally only get soap magazines or my running one ..

its awful really to be like this how do others just take it in thee stride and not react like we do ?
wonder if will ever change , think the older i get the worst will be as things happen as u get older .

having a bad day ....feeling rough still so bunged up nose and throat little sore as coughing so much i think , but seem to have this kind of thing going on with breath kind of comes and goes , the only way i can describe it it like when u walk through hair spray with your mouth open , if youv ever sprayed your hair then seem to have inhaled it by accident ....
well like that kind of taste .....i don't think I'm wheezy but not sure ....
really worried something els , really think something wrong with throat or lungs ...convinced infact and got myself in a real worry .....
still on ABs till monday am a lot better but not as well as id hoped ....
could all theses weeks of throat flem etc just be sinus or throat infection ....
sorry seem to lost the plot today , can't talk to anyone ....was in tears at work today couldn't say why ...

got X-ray on tuesday then thing down throat following week .....

hand holding required please if poss ..

hope everyone els is better than me ...

sorry, have been out all day so haven't been here for hand holding. But am here now!

Does it help at all to think of all the things you've been convinced were wrong with you in the past but turned out not to be? That sometimes helps me, reminding myself that I've been wrong so many times in the past. If I was wrong all those times about being seriously ill, its perfectly reasonable to think I might be wrong this time too.

also that taste in your mouth, the horrible metallic bitter taste? I'm nearly sure that's from your sinuses, when you think of all the gunk that's in there, infected, draining into your throat and mouth, its logical that it would leave a horrible taste.

thanks treacle , now youv said that about the sinus stuff that could be it ...didnt think that would make a taste in mouth but guess could be ....
am so bunged up reaching to clear throat at times ...as it gets back of my throat ...nasty sorry (tmi)
will feel better i hope once iv had both tests done ...keep trying to look on positive as seen 2 docs both said same things ...so trying to cling to that ....just seems to have been going on for so long ...

how are you today ? hope your ok and had a nice day ?
what are you up to over weekend ?

its my DH Bday tomz so going to go to pics all of us together then bite to eat out all being well ...so that will be nice ...
thank you again for support means a great deal .....no one els has a clue round me ....dont think would understand ..i find it baffling myself at times how i came to be like this ..

I have dreadful HA too. I am utterly afraid of life atm and am really not living. I am convinced I have breast cancer / stomach cancer cancer cancer.

I finally went on Lexapro 5 weeks ago. Ironically the side effects are all physical ie weight loss and sore boobs. I am all over the place on it. My GP says to hang on and keep going for 8 weeks, that it can get worse before it gets better but it is hard.

However, I have done 5 I can and will keep going.

I hate this bloody thing and there are very few people you can really talk to it about. I go to a psychotherapist every week but really felt sick and tired of the HA so meds were my last stop

afraid of life, that's exactly it. I had this sort of lightbulb moment a while back when I looked at my elderly parents and thought 'if I live to their age, but I spend it worrying like this, I will truly have worried my life away'. I just knew I couldn't go on.

Medication and cbt have worked for me to a certain extent, but it still lurks.

Yep. Afraid to be alive. That's it.

How is everyone today ?

hope having a better day ....

im ok ish ....was good to get out yesterday def out of the house ...gives a different perspective .....
today am ok for now .. last full day of ABs still bunged up but little better i think am i right in thinking that ABs still carry on working after you have stopped them ? think someone told me that at some point ...as they are in your system ...

x

I've got a pain in my groin...

What is it? Ovarian cancer of course - or the mole that's on my groin developing a deep rooted tumour.

Arggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Thanks for asking choclab. Hope you guys don't mind me joining you.

hello milkhell no please do join , hope your feeling it better now .

hope everyone els is ok to

Milkhell Welcome

choc I think antibiotics are in your system for a couple of days after you stop taking them.

ok , just wondered as stop mine tomz and still not right ....how are you moniker ?

yes welcome milkhell

oh dear ..just when i thought things were ok .....this morning looked in mouth under tongue ....where that skin bit joining bottom to the actual tongue ....(looks like turkey neck ) theres a blood spot i think looks like dark blood scab tried to get off with finger but won't ....oh god what could that be I'm close to tears and googling .....
could it be burst vessel then healing over ????
blowing nose a lot and streaky blood come out of one nostril yesterday ...dark in colour presuming vessel .....
im so feed up with this anx at a high today ...can anyone help me ....i have to go to work but know will be stressing all day and worried ...and can't tell anyone .... ...

anyone had similar ? or could it be Mouth C .........not sure if its a place i may have caught or bitten ...unlikly as where it it .... should i rush to docs dentist ......

feeling so worried now and sick .....just had enough

Choclab. When I'm feeling like this I do my best to think of all the other cancers I've 'had' and the ultimate result ( ie not had it - even when I've had actual links and bumps.)

Maybe try and write a list?

How are you feeling now?

choc I'm ok at the moment thank you. Sorry to hear you are struggling at the moment. I have had the blood spot under my tongue as you describe - I looked under my tongue as it felt like a mouth ulcer. I don't know what caused it but it took about 2 weeks to go completely, each day it looked a little bit less.

When is your appointment - you could mention it then. Honestly though, mine cleared up by itself and it is extremely likely yours will too. When you look tomorrow, it will have gone down a bit I'm sure.

I've been doing well recently and now I'm having a wobble

Accidentally read a report on BBC website about Vinnie Jones being treated for skin cancer. Can't imagine why I read it as he's not someone I'm interested in, but read it I did. And it said something along the lines of 'I had what I thought was a blackhead, or wart or something, but it turned out to be malignant melanoma'. Now, that's a new one on me as I thought it was only moles that I needed to worry about. Anyway, my mind turns to my dh who has a little blemish on his face that won't go away...and its daft because its been there for months now, but it hasn't got any bigger etc but it doesn't stop me freaking out about him.

And today, presumably because I've been worrying, I've got the 'lump in the throat' feeling. But of course in the back of my mind I'm thinking something much worse.

Hi everyone ...thank you for replying , I'm ok ish, the blood thing has come off ..yay !! can only presume i must have caught it from food or something as can see slight red scratch .... so maybe i caught it and it bleed and that was it.... but i was in bits this morning i must say ...
home now and throat still so very sore , finished Abs , and still feels sore not as sore as last week but not right , swallowing a lot as anx making it worse i know , i am totally convinced i have some kind of Throat C as why would still be in pain after ABs ? what els can you get in throat when sore symptoms .....
i know that I'm not presenting with the typical signs and a non smoker but can't seem to stop myself thinking the worse .. ....

week tomz i have the camera thing ....so close to xmas I'm not sure how i will take bad news I really don't ...

Oh treacel- this is one of my other biggest fears , aim freckly and many moles so get checked every 6 months (at my own request ) they say can leave a year but i don't , they say to me to watch for change check maybe once a month , something like that would set me off in a spin also , i have sun damage blemish on my face and I'm on constant watch, i have even taken pics of my face to see change and yes over years they have spread out but at the clinic they say all r ok ...think as we get older we do get things on face try not to worry , does your DH know your worried about it ?

sucking a throat sweet now feels a bit better ...
be on later if anyone wants off load x

I told him I was worried and asked him to go to the Dr, and to my surprise he agreed that he would - his father has had skin cancer so that's probably in the back of his mind. The thing is, now I'm really worried. He hasn't been to the Dr for over 12 years, so the fact he is agreeing to go has me sick with worry, even though it's me who wants him to go