I have such a strong urge to kill myself...

[Annalise345]

I have struggled with eating disorders since I was fifteen, after recovering from anorexia I have developed bulimia...I can't do this anymore. I have sought private counselling (NHS approach was not helpful the first time round) but I am waiting for them to organise an appointment. I think it's too late though...I just want out. I don't know what to do...

Call the samaritans NOW, visit A and E.
Good luck.

Oh only half my post came out!

Sorry to see you are feeling like this. You need to get some professional help asap.

So sorry you are feeling like this. Please do call the Samaritans now or attend a walk in clinic or A & E. They are all there to help.

It's not too late, I promise, but it's normal to feel like this before taking a leap of faith into therapy

NHS counsell

Duh sorry, nhs counselling didn't work for me, the only thing that has, is private psychotherapy, it's well worth it, I promise

In the meantime, please reach out for some help, as the others have said

Call them now - i just looked up the Samaritans and it's 08457 90 90 90
You poor love and there are lots of us here willing you to feel better and more positive and do keep talking if it helps

Hi I have been the same as you eds all my life had sucicidal ideationsif you wanna chat im here! Luckily my work sorted appointments out for me I still have bad days. I hooe you are ok and can make orogeess xx

do you have any family support?

I can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling but we're all here willing to listen and support if we can. Do you have anyone with you this evening?

i've worked with teenagers with adhd/ed and associated mental health disorders and believe me there is light at the end of a very dark tunnel.
if you can get to Birmingham Central Library, any tuesday or saturday, i'll show you how you just need the right diet and nutrition.