have i made a mistake

[porkpie12]

started today in year 7 chose a school short drive or 15mins walk we also have a school opposite our house child preferred the other one. went in today dropped them down i have come home in a complete panic thinking i should of chose the one over the road as now worrying about picking up dropping off every day no other children walking this way can't help thinking what have i done

[ChazsBrilliantAttitude]

I let my 10 year old catch the bus on his own and walk to the shops and the like. During the summer would you have let your DD do these things or would you have worried too much?

I suspect those worries were already there but they have come out more strongly because the location of the school is putting you in a position where you have to face them.

[porkpie12]

just started letting her go to the local shop with friends this summer played out for a couple of years just life for everyone would of been so much easier if over the road my husband pointed this out at the time but i ignored him over the road has a sixth form too the other doesn't on paper it was so obvious

[porkpie12]

really thought i would be getting better by now but its been a month of hell

[porkpie12]

referred by healthy minds going to do an online sceme in 4 weeks then can see someone in 8 can't stand it can't wait that long

[porkpie13]

same person just name changed feel no better still feel the same constantly beating myself up for not putting the school across the road we had just a great summer and feel so awful i wish i could turn back the clock cannot see an end to this

[porkpie13]

still keep beating myself up all the time if parents would slag off the school across the road i would say i wont hear a word against it it has been wonderful for my son i can't believe i didn't put the school across the road and i am wishing away the next 5 years they say "go with what you know" and god i wish i had i know that if she had gone across the road i would of been fine and now just in a mess advice is needed how to move forward

[porkpie13]

any help would be appreciated i know i can't turn back the clock but not doing so well

[HoopHopes]

Parents can. And do move children mid term if that would help.

[piratecat]

how is she doing at the other school.

what meds are you on, are you seeing gp regularly.

[porkpie13]

doing ok getting a bit tired now close to half term and the initial excitement has wained hubby thinks it would be cruel to move her at what if there were problems he thinks i would be worse all her friends on street go to schoo across the road so she wouldn't be alone mom thinks the school shes at would wonder why i was taking her out as there are no obvious problems

[porkpie13]

having bad repetetive thoughts today a few weeks ago went to do pick up said i would be round the corner as normal got out car to wait to see her coming didnt come for a while she had tried to phone to see if it was me or dad picking her up she waited with a friend the friends stepdad came to pick up friend and she said ill walk round corner anyway and friends step dad said were going that way and i was there feel truly awful and guilty as i had left my phone in car feel like i let her down feel sick is this an over reaction please help my anxiety is awful

[porkpie13]

work up again all nervous this morning cant believe two months ago i was working having fab days out and living the dream how can it all come crashing down just want to get back to how i was any help please feel so awful about leaving my phone in car

[porkpie13]

any help feel i really need counselling for my anxiety but waiting ages for it

[HoopHopes]

I hope half term helps. As n school situation it may help you? Quieter and easier starts to the day?

[porkpie13]

i was doing really well yesterday looking at christmas breaks and bonfire nights daughter had a school disco was waiting to collect her and a couple of teachers at the door one i thought was a teacher joking about a couple of olders girls came up and he gave them a hug thought it was a bit off now really anxious about it and the scene keeps going over in my head so back to square one

[porkpie17]

me again well half term helped but i just cannot get over the regret that i didn't choose the school over the road it will not go away i can't get passed it and it hurts everyday and i cannot enjoy life at the moment at all i just keep thinking if only she had gone there i would be happy and we could be doing such lovely things