Feel so up and down.

[maniclady]

I have bipolar 1 and have been going out till 4am every other night wwith a friend I have been spending lots and I've been hypersexual.

During the day I'm very down I feel suicidal, all I think about is how much I'm hurting dh and the dc and how much better off without me they would be. I don't do anything all day. Feel so lost and alone.

I'm also hearing things.

By the sounds of it you need to give whoever's responsible for your care a call (hope they're more helpful than mine we're recently).

I'm sure all you need is your meds tweaking.