It will feel funny. The sessions have been of real value, and I can understand it feels scarey not having more. I've not had CBT, so my advice, as ever, has no factual background or voice of experience. I will offer this though
You do have a support group outside of the CBT man -
- your friends,
- your family (how much have you shared with your mum? Can you lean on her from time to time for a confidence boost or a listening ear,)
- your lovely husband who I remember was so supportive when you posted about him,
- your online friends
- The techniques you have learnt - refer back to what you have learnt occasional and remind yourself of the best techniques, especially when you have a few days of being particularly tired or feeling vulnerable
- new friends yet to come. When does your eldest start school? - you will come across people you once knew and reignite friendships, you will cement blossoming friendships, and for the first time, your daughters will steer your choice of company by asking for play dates. Who knows who is round the corner.
And don't forget your children love you for who you are, for your love, kindness, protection, and everything else a mother is. Surely a mother - daughter (or son) relationship is built over years of knowing each other, it evolves, changes, deepens, flexes, but is there like the ocean, waxing and waning, calm or stormy, constant and comforting no matter what the weather. It isn't built and fixed within the first few years of life.
Take care, you are not on your own and you are at the start of a beautiful journey.