But have been so many time this year already. 

I am so depressed. I want to end my life.
I have been in two car accidents in the last 8 days.
I am drinking too much and have been fighting the booze for weeks. I want to go into a detox but am not sure i am strong enough to carry on when it is over 

What do I do? I cannot call A&E again. They hate me already. 