I want to run away

[LuckySalem]

how do I explain to my husband that I just want to run away from everything without him assuming I want to run from him?

I'd maybe tell him you love him, then explain you are finding life overwhelming atm and you feel like you want to run away from everything, but not him, then tell him you love him again.

I'm so sorry you feel like this. It must be horrid. What's bothering you most?

Why do ya want to run away Hun?

I've been diagnosed with chronic pain and depression. I have 2 children who completely ignore everything I ask/shout/beg them to do and a husband who works nights so isn't there when I need him.
I've just had enough of everything if I didn't disagree with suicide because it hurts the ones you leave I'm pretty sure I would have done it by now a few times over.

I cry nearly every night and wake up with dread of the day ahead.

Could you ask for your treatment (for depression) to be reviewed?

I could but doctors look at me like I'm cuckoo

had my dosage doubled today hope it does something cos this is horrible