poor health taking its toll mentally, feel so useless and like a burden.

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I have a number of health issues, fibromyalgia, psoriatic arthritis, migraines and that's on top of depression and anorexia.

I am struggling. I'm in constant pain. I have to cancel plans because I can barely move. I rely too much on dh and feel crappy about being such a burden on him and ds.

Its starting to really take its toll and I've been having some pretty bleak thoughts and feeling that they would be better off without me. I'm losing weight again, I didn't even realise it but I'm only eating one meal a day because I can't eat two or three. And I really didn't realise. It was only when I sat down and worked it out.

Since yesterday I have had a migraine, my second in a month. I'm shattered and exhausted by being so bloody faulty.

I saw your thread yesterday and had to post.
I have little to offer, I am afraid, other than sympathy. I seem to find my medical condition more and more disabling as I get older. Apparently it shouldn't be, but mine is described as very 'brittle'. I am so permanently tired , I sometimes wonder how i get everything done. My hormones and thyroid have also been tested and they are not norm, but apparently not bad enought to do anything about.
I find dealing with my autustic ds1 and boisterous ds2, just too much most of the time.

I find there is very little support available.
I don't even have any suggestions for you.
I went to counselling, but she agreed, as does my Mum and my GP that i do a pretty good job in difficult circumstances,and the counsellor discharged me. Great. so that leaves me.... where exactly.

People recommend counselling flippantly, but if there is a medical side , plus the mental side, plus any other difficulties, there there is only so much that they can do surely.

What exactly are they going to say about your daily pain. Chin up love, think about it not being as bad as it seems. No , why don't you p*ss off, you silly ignorant woman. I do not have the daily pain you have. But I find that people who talk to me are incredibly dissmissive of the medical side of my problems.

I 'm sorry that doesn't really help, does it.
I just wanted to offer some sympathy and understanding.

Badvoc, I'm sorry that you are having such a crap day how do you feel now? do you have the meds to get you through the holidays? How is DS2?

Oblomov, thank you so much. I totally see what you mean. often one condition leads to another, and all you can do is the best you can. tiredness makes things so much worse too. its shit.

I feel so much better today, I've had a good nights sleep, my head is clear and I have had lunch. I'm a little stiff and sore, but its at least managable

Bluerghhhh....
Will do amends run on Friday and stock up.
Poor ds2 still not good :(
Felling rather sorry for myself today :(