Welcome Rumours! 
Vicar dressed is still an achievement. Hope the supermarket wasn't too overwhelming. I hate supermarkets 
Turned the sense of failure is a bitch. Do try and remind yourself that you are ill, that it is not your fault, and to be as kind to yourself as you would be if you had a broken bone. Hope the med increase helps.
Feeno BPD has a lot of links to childhood issues. I do hope your review is helpful.
Am feeling good tonight. I bumped into an ex that I had a bad break up with on the bus tonight, a combination of my mental health issues (I was really ill at the time), and him dealing with his own stuff, causing him to be quite a knob. We started talking occassionally again at the beginning of the year, after finding out that we live about two minutes away from each other! He knows about my diagnosis. We had a giggle on the bus, and I was brave, and apologised about some of the things I said and did in our relationship that I still feel embarrassed about. Have felt horrible about them for years. He gave me a hug, told me that he understood, that it was okay, and that he only remembered the good things. He also apologized for the things he had done, too.
I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, I really do. The BPD causes me to be incredibly sensitive to what people think of me, especially people I care / have cared about. To know that he doesn't hate me, and remembers the good things, means so much. :)