Hi anyone got any advice?

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About 5 years ago I was diagnosed with depression, it was sorted at the time. I was given citalopram.

Over the past few months it has come back with a vengeance. I am constantly anxious and I feel like just ending it all. I have a doctors appointment on Monday, I suppose I am asking for some coping techniques to get me through tomorrow, I am not at work because I cannot cope.

Hi Frownie
I a few weeks ahead of you, In that I started prozac for anxiety 3 weeks ago, its been a tough old ride but mainly because I was also going through the withdraw from another anti-d. Certain members of the forum have been invaluable to me when I have really been in deep dark places.

Im taking lorazapam which is also a benzo but alot stronger than diazipam. I was scared of taking it but the dr has convinced me buy telling me that addicition is a lot easier to deal with than me attempting to take my own life (which has gone through my head). Im praying to god that the prozac start to work soon and gives my body and head a break.

Hello TheGruffalosbitch and good luck I hope they kick in soon, I am finding this forum invaluable at the moment. It really is good hearing from people who are going through the same.

Frownie and TheGruffalosbitch, I have been where you are. I had a complete breakdown and was suicidal. I suffered huge anxiety and depression. This was two years ago. Since then I have taken venlafaxine, and had psychotherapy and cbt. I wanted to let you know that I have got so much better. I have the occasional bad day, esp near my period, but this is where the cbt kicks in and I am able to ride the storm without dissolving into a gibbering wreck on the floor.

I remember at the time all I could think was this is it, I will always be like this, and I will never escape this anxiety. I do know though I will always suffer mentally. I am also asthmatic and I suppose I liken my depression to this, that I am prone to attacks following exposure to triggers, but I take medication and avoid triggers. I do the same with my mental health. In time you will both repair. It may not happen as quick as you like, but sometimes fighting that feeling of anxiety exacerbates it as you continue the fight or flight feeling. I know exactly how you are both are feeling, and it is horrendous. But I promise, it will get better.
x

Glad your doctor was helpful, frownie, I thought of you this afternoon. You must go back to him if you feel the urge to harm yourself again, but it's great that members of the forum have experienced similar feelings (and medication) and can talk you through it.

I actually slept last night, apart from waking up at 3am feeling anxious so I took one diaz and fell back to sleep quite quickly. So that is good am about to take my first citalopram. And start this medication journey. I know I have said it before but it is really good sharing it with everyone. I don't feel quite so alone.

You have cheerleaders here! Glad you had a decent night's sleep.

How are you doing today Frownie?

Today I am not so bad, I have a lot to keep myself occupied. I am getting a few side affects from the Citalopram, but I wont go into them nothing bad just a little unexpected.

I had another nights sleep, but am still waking up in the morning feeling very low.

Thank you for asking.

I have also changed my nn, to something a tad more positive.

mornings are absolutely awful for me too, it takes to mid-day before i feel even a tad normal.

Gah my pmt is kicking in big time and I am anxious again. Though not as bad as usual.

Thankfully I still have some diaz left but I am saving them just in case I get really bad again.

However compared to last weekend I am in a much more positive state of mind.

Hi so I am an anxious mess again, I have run out of diazipam and am having panic attacks eeerugh just fuck off.

Well I am not sure if anyone is reading this but is cathartic for me anyway. I cant quite believe it has been two weeks since my last post.

My anxiety has all but gone, thank you Citalopram. My relationship with my possibly ex but not quite yet I dunno is getting better. My original posts pointed to alcoholic parents, however me reaching my last rope resulted in them seeking help.

Onward and upward so they say.

Hi Frownie,

Glad you are feeling better :)

How are your parents seeking help? Were they enabling each other? Take care.

Great to hear - when you are in the depths of it you can't imagine getting better, then when you feel better you can't believe you were ever so low, don't you think?

So pleased you are on the mend.

TheraVino, how are you getting on? x

I'm good thanks - summer holidays are definitely improving my mood! How are you? Not very ferocious it seems .... :)