I am beginning to hate this life

[worrywortisworrying]

No One wants DS.

I hate everyone for disliking him for his disability.

Only DD keeps me going.

I hate being here.

What is his disability? My DD has quite complex SN that manifest as behavioural issues. I find that the two support groups I attend are invaluable for my sanity. Sending a big hug x.

HFA.

MAssive IQ. Terrible social skills. Poor behaviour.

I hate going out in public at this point. I hate everyone for hating him.

I hate my life.

Thankyou for asking, Shockers

Are there any groups you could go to? I find the fact that I can laugh with others who have insight, massively cathartic. I didn't think I'd ever laugh again at one point either.

How old is he? Would you qualify for DLA so that you could get a little respite, then you and your DD could do something together and be able to relax?

I only realised after joining one of these groups that it would benefit DD as well as me if we got some respite. I also met other families, we go for picnics together, out of the way of folk who might expect 'normal' behaviour, and we don't judge each other... it's wonderful.

I had to look up what HFA is.high functioning autism?
Like shockers said,are their autism groups in your area?
How old is your DS?
Have you tried a nearby church.Hopefully you should get some emotional support there for all of you,and even soem practical support.If one church wasnt helpful,you should be able to find one that is.
have you tried the relevany boards on here?They might have additional help to give you.Sorry you are suffering in this way.