I want to die

[Becky36]

I don't even know how to do this. I have a son who is amazing. I don't want to hurt him. My life is so shit. I can't cope with anything. My brother died last week, I struggle financially. Both of my last relationships have been abusive. I have no family here and I can't do this any more. I don't know what to do any more. I think that my brother has, at least, got some peace. My friends think that I am strong but I'm not. I hate my life and I just want it to be over.

Oh becky, I'm glad to hear you're getting the help you need, but so sorry to hear about your little brother . Good luck.

SEnding you strength. I am so pleased that you have been to the doctors, have they offered any bereavement counselling? This may well be the person who you can open up to as then you will have no personal relationship with them and will feel no responsibility to cover your emotions.

You are doing so so well for your DS, you are a fantastic mum and i wonder if you have had to be "mum" to your brothers as well. Well now you have your son, you have to put him first and you are right, you just cannot be responsible for what your little brother does. This is going to be a tough time for him and maybe drink will be the only thing that gets him throuh the next few weeks (ironic as that sounds) it may just mean that you have to go with it and hope that when things settle he will realise that the only person who can help him is himself.