I'm slipping..

[Lillylolly]

I can feel it happening and I really don't know what to do.
I feel like I want it all to end.
I feel like I want to end it all.
I just don't think I'm strong enough to keep on trying.
My DD's deserve better.

Can you tell a bit more about what is going on? What is making you feel so bad? How old are your dds? Have you been diagnosed with depression or another illness? Are you receiving any treatment or support?

Post natal depression.
DD's are 5 and 7 months. They are amazing. I want them to be happy. I'm scared I'm no good for them and don't understand how I can feel like this. They are the only thing keeping me going right now.
What if that stops? If that stops I'm screwed.
I'm getting support from my HV and on a waiting list for CBT. I'm on my second type of medication too.
I don't know what makes me feel like this. It scares me how strong my feelings can be. For now I have other ways of coping but I don't think it's always going to work.

What's making you feel like this is PND - nasty illness. Well done holding on to your love for your amazing dds.

Try not to think about what ifs if you can help it. No point worrying that your love for your dds may stop being enough - time enough for that if it happens, which it probably won't.

You will get better - you will beat the PND with your own fighting, support from others and good old time.

Try to talk to friends or find a support group - sometimes saying out loud how bad you feel can take the sting out of it.

Thank you. I hope you're right. I want to be ok. Just scared to admit some of these feelings because of what might happen.