so depressed..

[ebbie22]

I just feel like i have completly changed from who i once was,I love my kids deep down,i know that ,but yet it breaks my heart to not be bothered to do anything with them,am on anti ds but worry that im never going to get thru this...
I have no interest in anything anymore and find it impossible to ever think that i will smile again,let along laugh..
Is this just me?

No it is NOT just you!!!!

I'm sure someone with actual advice will be along in a moment but knowing how it feels myself I couldn't ignore your message.

It is a terrible thing to go through. I find being here (MN) helpful, to know we're not alone.

You sound like you're trying hard to get better. It will happen I absolutely promise. Just keep talking, trying, reaching out.. the good days will become more frequent. They will.

One day you will look back and think wow, look how hard I fought, and look how hard I've come.

Huge hugs :)