Why am I being such a PITA?

[ElephantsAndMiasmas]

I don't know what's wrong with me at the moment. I can't concentrate on work and keeping missing deadlines, being moody with family, don't feel I can make plans for the future, not really eating much. Is this normal? I keep trying to make everything work but my heart isn't in anything.

History of thyroid probs in my family - could this be something to do with it?

Any insight would be great, I feel like an utter waste of space atm.

Thanks

it could be worth a trip to the gp for blood tests to rule out vitamin deficiency or as you say thyroid probs or other. Or is something else missing from your life?

*keep, not keeping

I don't know, I work alone now (freelance) and that makes me feel down I know.

It's been a rough year but a large part of that is because I have been so listless and lost all my ambition.

I also work freelance from home and while it has huge benefits the lack of social interaction is an absolute grind. If I didn't have the children to think of I wouldn't be doing it any more. It can really get you down I know. Do you have opportunities for socialising?

Not a lot. I don't have DC yet, but am desperately short of cash do feel I have to plough on with it. But then I'm making a crap job of it. I used to really care about the quality of what I did, now I'm just a slacker, and not even in a fun way.

time to explore other options before you have DC perhaps?

you are right. Do you think this is enough to account for the not eating etc?

I've definitely had times when I didn't feel like eating or doing anything much, basically because I was unfulfilled with what I was doing. You need some inspiration!! Sounds like a bit of a cliché but you could find an interesting hobby or just take yourself out of your comfort zone for a bit, it might help you reassess things

Yeah, a plan would help. Thanks for talking it over with me. Am going to docs tomorrow morning for a blood test too.

Do you have contact with other home-workers at all? It's like being a student but worse!

No, nobody understands what I do (translating). It's been a bit of an effort to create a social life but now I have enough adult company to keep me from going insane!!