Just a little "note to self". I've been doing updates in my head to spare you the tedium of it, but here's a summary:
Monday and Tuesday, listened to a meditation about having a good relationship with food; will probably listen to something like this every day for a while. Basically I use food as treats instead of nourishment, but since I genuinely enjoy healthy food, and like cooking, it's a puzzle why I would turn to UPF instead so often. Well actually of course it's not a puzzle - lots of strong reasons why - more like an association I am questioning.
Both days broke my fast with sliced apple and peanut butter instead of toast and peanut butter. This is a good swap for me. Soup, bread, cheese, yoghurt for lunch. Stir fry for one dinner, curry for the other. Portion sizes just right.
Even better if I'd been having lunch at home instead of at work on Monday: I was feeling quite full and would have left some food at home, but at work it was easier to finish it rather than have it commented on (perfectly innocently - my colleagues are lovely).
I wonder how many people with food problems would be helped in their progress if we just had someone to talk to about it, fifteen minutes a day. Paying attention in a spirit of kindness is helping me. I know I'm only two/three days in, and typically I run out of steam and slip back into old habits on about day four or five, but if I feel that happening I'll do another long-winded post about it here 😁
Absolutely no need to reply, or even read. This can be an occasional therapy space. But if anyone else would benefit from getting their thoughts out, I'll be here to "listen".