It’s all gone horribly wrong for me today and for the first time In literally ages I found myself bingeing on chocolate. Now, in my bad days I would hardly have called 8 little chocolate eggs a binge, so that’s a sign of changes I’ve made, but anyway, I ate them and I felt bingey and out of control and that is what counts. A combination of totm, feeling ridiculously grouchy and cranky, I spent yesterday constantly wanting and not having things, and today I just cracked. I think having, although planned, those sandwiches and sweet stuff on Saturday, has just switched on my carb cravings at totally the wrong time. I feel completely knackered also which can’t help can it? Too many busy weekends and late nights and too much wine recently!
Today and yesterday I ate breakfast too, which definitely seems to have a detrimental effect on my appetite all day as I was constantly on the lookout for food and grazed my way to 600 calories before I’d even planned dinner. Then dinner. Then a split second of madness which was probably a few hundred calories but lots of carbs. To be honest, it’s not the cals/carbs it’s the yucky feeling now that I hate, and that horrible feeling of knowing it but doing it anyway.
Soooooo, kitchen closing probably near to tdee, a lot of carbs,15k steps (5km run) and promising to try harder tomorrow!