I think might have mild body dysmorphia

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So I think I have a VERY mild version of it, but not serious enough to need any external help.

I used to be bigger all my life... Until one day a few years after I had my first, I had enough, so went on a weight loss journey which led me to be super skinny (I also became a runner in the meantime).

With running I can more or less manage my weight fine and be happy about it, but because of work and family life it's not the easiest thing to do, so instead I do home workouts .

Anywho, I sometimes think I actually look OK, maybe can look a tad chubby (like the one in the photo with the black jacket), but overall I think I probably look slim, however because

a) I do think that without clothes I look "thick"

b) I'm technically overweight

I feel bigger even if that's not the case. My husband isn't much help... He has his own weight hangups and he met me when I was at my tiniest. It really hard to get his honest opinion.

My mother thinks I look too skinny regardless .

So how can I have a more positive attitude? BTW I workout and exercise because I like it, don't see it as something to punish me or anything. I do wish I could eat more "junk food" more regularly but maybe the vast majority feels the same way!

I understand how you think, I think the same way too and have the same background of being bigger all my life. What I see in the mirror and in pictures can change so much, I honestly don’t really know what my body looks like. The only thing that sets me straight is “i’m (size), and I know that (someone I know) wears that size, they are not fat”. So maybe when you feel like spiralling, keep repeating in your head “i’m a size 6/8, so I can’t be fat, my brain is playing tricks on me” obviously this is a quick fix, and not for long term. Look into self esteem and ways to boost it.

Actually it really helped when I went to the office for the first time. First of all they told me I was tiny, and then I compared myself to other ladies and thought "I think they look OK and I'm definitely smaller". I just have a complete fixation with the number, I'm sure I could be exactly the same size, just 5kg lighter and be absolutely content about the whole thing.