Which would you choose?
I can maintain a BMI of 20-21 (and look good) but it's a constant fight against my old anorexia /bulimia and it's hard to stop losing weight. Constantly hungry, feel cold, numb toes, obsessional thoughts etc.
Or my weight stabilises at about a BMI of 24, with no eating disorder thoughts etc. But I'm chubby, and clothes size 14/16 with a waist of 30 inches.
I was stable and "recovered" for a decade, but try and lose weight and the eating disorders just come flooding back. But I hate being fat. And not particularly healthy either.