So I’m gonna hit 48 next month, been wed 30 years or as I now refer to it as, my 30 year war.
No mortgage one older child, moved 20+ times due to his work, marriage been in trouble last 4 years, he convinced me to sell up in Kent to be mortgage free in his home town in Yorkshire, promised me our time, fresh start and to re-connect, been living here 8 months and I hate it, I lived here 18 years ago and hated it then, stupid me!
Now instead of him getting a part time job for a better life, he works 50 hours a week, and I’m dumped and alone, with no family or friends, I’ve tried to talk to him and even went to relate twice, didn’t work, he’s controlling, manipulative and says “he knows what’s best for me”: I’ve no support, and this is my first time reaching out, I feel if I don’t do something now I’ll be dead before I’m 50, I’ve got no idea where to start, been researching online for what I can do, it’s a nightmare as when I told him a few weeks ago I can’t do this he told me to F.Off and go… I can’t as I have no money, I want to sell the house or he buy me out and just walk away, the mental damage that man has done to me is more than any women can bear, I’ve lost my identity and don’t know myself, but I know I’m in here somewhere and I need to find her, god the tears hurt, the pain hurts.. where did those 30 years of my life go I’m so broken 😞