help make anniversary special.....

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Want to know what I can do to make an anniversary special? Any ideas from a mans perspective? what would you like to be surprised with?

Omg i'm so sorry for asking you for a cuddle i'm sorry.
Karma has struck and I feel really hungover, I've walked into a door frame, walked on the gravel drive bare foot and spilt hot coffee on myself. Hopefully that's me done now.
Do you really want to know? The moment I start crying he goes out, thought guys don't care when you cry.

Don't be sorry we all have a rough day. Well that's three out the waydon't, , ess you on a six :-!

Hey I'm all ears that's what sites like this are for.

Some do some dont, some can't handle it, it might have some other meaning to him?

Basically i'm back on the pill cos we decided to stop ttc for a bit. The beginning of this cycle I forgot loads of pills in the first week. And yesterday id convinced myself I was pregnant. Did a test and im not. he didn't really care so I waited til he'd gone out for a shift and had a massive cry.
Its silly really

Those tests aren't always 100% as you know.

Did he really not care or his he possibly just bit aloof because of work stress/mc something else? Could he have taken you forgetting the wrong way?

He is stressed. He didn't care that I forgot, I told him and he choose not to get emergency stuff and stop having sex til I was protected again.
when I told him I wasn't he just said "never mind, remember the pill this month"
And when I tried to bring up ttc again he just shut me down.
And if the test was wrong I've had a massive binge drinking session, great .
But i'm sure its right. My body has failed me so much I highly doubt it would be kind enough to get pregnant. And then stay that way.

Maybe just leave it a bit after he been at work he might have had time to think.

Don't be so hard on yourself, dw was convinced it wasn't going to happen without intervention but it did in the end, your young. You mentioned horses before going for a ride to clear your head?

I've walked the dog which helped. Rode joker and he threw me off which didn't help!
What worries me most (though I do have lots of things that also worry me most lol) is that there is no medical reason for me to keep having MC. And each time its after seeing it in a scan. Maybe I should start turning down dating scans.....and the mc are spread out over the Weeks so its not like I could be monitered over a set week to see the problem What if it stays like this? I want children, I've worked with children for years, but I don't think I can take anymore heart break. And we aren't suitable for adoption. And ivf won't work as I can get pregnant, just not stay that way. And without a reason they can't treat anything

What if he has enough and leaves me? Crying again now

Hope you didn't bump your head!

You sound a very loving partner, but this stress isn't going to help, I know it's easy to say. Got to get yourself in a more positive frame of mind, you sound that you are of good means financially could you seek a private meeting with a specialist to give you some steer?

Hey hey hey, get those thoughts of him leaving you out of your head.

We can't afford a specialist he doesn't like me working much so its really just what he earns. I used to work a lot but there were times that we didn't see each other for Weeks - me working days him working nights) if I worked more we could.....but he likes me being at home a lot and having time to spend his money on "girly shit" and my horse and doing classes. As well as having the time to woo his bosses with dinner parties and tennis matches. they're all pompous prats.......
Feel really alone sigh
Don't know why i'm such an emotional mess. I'm sorry to dump my problems on you.

Ah ok, that does seem a nightmare with the hours and can see how you made the choice to stay, he does have some insane hours - no way of him being to change his working patterns at all? Is he a specialist of some sort?

I'm guessing on the one hand its nice to have that free time but not spiritually fulfilling and i guess you don't sound like a lady who lunches type? Well too young for it at this point! So what classes do you do?

Could you do with a bit more socialising with people more on your wavelength?

We all get those rough periods - chin up

He's a specialist paramedic. So no chance of changing his shifts.
All the people I "socialise" with in the week arent true friends. More like the partners/wives of his work mates/bosses.
I do Egyptian Bellydance, hula, and yoga as well as sorting out my horse and dog. But all my close friend work full time and can't understand why I even want children.
My neighbours are all grumpy and only talk to me when they want horse poop for their gardens. And then complain when it smells!

I'm in a dance troop but with the recession bookings are down. So not much need to meet up for rehearsals

Those do sound fun though shme you not met anyone similar that you can bounce off. I guess you have to be wary of villa fever, and also that you don't end up feeling like your just there to hang off his arm?

Have you had any talks as to what your both going to do in terms of working if you get pregnant have kids etc?

My best friend recently took a job in Darwin, Aus.
It was always the plan that id stay at home. He'll be given a work reduction for a year after each child with no pay cut.
I didnt mind being home when I was pregnant as I had that to focus on.
But there is only so much baking and exercise you can do!
I'm sorry that i'm being so girly and silly and emotional

Thats good from his employers point of view, though I understand where your coming from unless you are Kirstie Alstopp that lifestyle cant be sustainable!

Don't be sorry for being human, from earlier it sounded good that partner showed some emotions as people who have been in forces / healthcare can sometimes get bit desensitised and need someone normal to keep them in check with the human race.

Ok - panic stations - I've just fainted.
Don't panic.....don't panic. Holy crap i'm panicking!

It still says i'm not pregnant. But I've only ever fainted when I was pregnant.

Perhaps you bit faint from yesterday evenings excess? Have you eaten much today - dont forget to look after yourself maybe and

Not eaten much. But I can usually drink quite a bit/ not eat a lot and be fine

Well look after yourself - want to hear you having a nice meal tonight lol

He won't be home til 8 at the earliest so I've got a long wait.
What to cook.........maybe a curry

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