Ok. So feeling a bit more positive. Dm and Dd came up. I’ve done a food shop (dsis for bbq later) £158 whoops (but two bottles of gin 8 craft beers and a case of Sol). Dm has helped tidy up and has changed our bedding.
Dd has put up paddling pool for ds and Dd.
Dh is currently at OOH. I’m in the car at the carpark overlooking the marina. Radio on. Drinking water.
I’ve also worked out that maybe my sleep pattern isn’t helped by me being dehydrated. So more water less alcoholignore the pink gin I just bought. I’m also going to try and have less caffeine.
I also bought some liquid iron stuff. That’s helped me massively in the past.
Dm says I should get signed off work next week. So I can take proper care of everyone. But - it’s me that needs taking care of. So unless I have time to do that...
Dh and I have talked again. And have decided maybe we’ve committed ourselves to doing too much. So no more commitments until we’ve finished the ones we have.
He’s incredibly worried about me. To the point he feels he needs to do things to help (which ordinarily would be ace but not with his back the way it is!)
His back goes from spasming to being ok. But when it goes it goes.