Oh no Wolf!
Welcome new people, things sound quite tight for you both. You definitely have to eat, it appalls me that mothers have to sacrifice their own meals for their family 
Wreck if it’s not every day of the holidays then the missing the DC thing might not be too bad - to me that would be the main consideration. But would you want to go away for a week at all?
Thanks very much for the kind thoughts everyone. It’s been a strange week. It seems so wrong to go on as usual but you kind of have to. Especially with children. I saw mum on Wednesday and I managed to (more or less) hold it together until the point when I was leaving and saw dad’s shoes lined up by the door. That set me off. And the whole week has been like that really - mostly fine but then something sets me off! I am glad I have the DCs to distract me. Dad left mum a letter which included his funeral instructions. I was a little upset that he has said no eulogies or speeches of any kind 
. He doesn’t like fuss or being the centre of attention but I really feel someone should be able to say a bit about him! Anyway, we will abide by his wishes but... .
It’s been an expensive couple of weeks. I’ve put over £100 petrol in the car and also booked the train and hotel (£160) for granny’s funeral in Devon (it’s a bit more expensive than driving but I don’t fancy driving both ways on my own - DH has to stay home with the DCs). I need to buy a black dress. The bargain Wallis dress I bought to try out for dad’s funeral is pretty nice so I think I’ll keep it. Dad loved polka dots so I wanted a spotty dress. It’s quite a bright blue with white spots. I might go for red shoes with it.
Dd has been ill for the last 3 days with a temperature /diarrhoea/incessant whining. I am worn out by her! I’d had enough by yesterday evening so we got takeaway. £25. Very rare for us.
Quiet weekend here. Is made no plans because of visiting dad so all our weekends are free for the foreseeable future. I need to plan some stuff.