I’m not doing this shit anymore

[struggling8888]

I’ve had enough!!!!!!! I’m sick to death of walking around my boring area, sick of the muddy fucking park and having to feed my baby in the cold because we’re not allowed indoors.

I hate the fact we’ve gone into mass fucking hysteria over a virus where 1/3 of people who get it don’t even realize and the vast majority of others get mild flu symptoms AT MOST.

I thought the vaccine was going to be our way out of this shit but no - suddenly there are new variants, it’s not good enough for the whole of the UK to be vaccinated - the WHOLE WORLD has to be vaccinated before we’re truly safe, and we’re now aiming for zero fucking Covid which was NEVER the original aim.

I just want family and friends to come round my house, indoors. I want to go to shops and sit in a cafe and not have to stand in a bloody queue to get in. I want someone to take my baby off me for one bloody afternoon so I can have a bit of peace and quiet.

I thought I’d feel better now the warmer weather’s here but I don’t at all. DP and I had a row earlier because he said it’s hard for him too and it’s not all about me. I never said it was, but surely I’m allowed to have a rant about how shit this is to my own partner?!!

I want the madness to end, now.

@BrutusMcDogface repeating my previous post for your benefit:

I’m not obliged to respond to every single poster on this thread. If I don’t respond personally to a poster it doesn’t mean I don’t feel empathy after reading their post. Perhaps it DOES mean that I’m at rock bottom myself and don’t have the mental resources to reply at that moment in time. For one who preaches about empathy you seem to have very little of it.

Find it really interesting everyone is now struggling now it’s winter and they can’t use their gardens or similar. I’ve been stuck in tiny one bed box flat with no outside space. Summer was dreadful. Me and my DP work on the frontline. Why is it now that everyone is struggling?

Well thanks for that but I did read your posts, @struggling8888.

Maybe you should call a doctor if you’re mentally at rock bottom?

@Ilovemycat13

Find it really interesting everyone is now struggling now it’s winter and they can’t use their gardens or similar. I’ve been stuck in tiny one bed box flat with no outside space. Summer was dreadful. Me and my DP work on the frontline. Why is it now that everyone is struggling?

You’ve answered your own question there and what does being on the sainted ‘Front line’ got to do with it?

@Ilovemycat13

Find it really interesting everyone is now struggling now it’s winter and they can’t use their gardens or similar. I’ve been stuck in tiny one bed box flat with no outside space. Summer was dreadful. Me and my DP work on the frontline. Why is it now that everyone is struggling?

Everyone is struggling because everyone has had enough. Quite simple.

Oh brutus give her a break for goodness sakes. And have you tried to see a doctor recently!?

We are all struggling and it’s ok to rant, but really; what will you actually achieve by that? Do you feel better for ranting? Has anything changed?

Do you have any new mum friends that you can talk to virtually? I know how hard it must be without a support network, but there are all kinds of forums (fora?!) and online groups where you can meet others in the same situation. Might help?

@willowsandroses

Oh brutus give her a break for goodness sakes. And have you tried to see a doctor recently!?

I honestly despair at some of these inhumane responses!

@willowsandroses

Oh brutus give her a break for goodness sakes. And have you tried to see a doctor recently!?

No I haven’t seen one, but I have filled in an online form and got a telephone appointment, twice. One for my son and one for myself to increase my dose of antidepressants.

So DFOD.

@BrutusMcDogface

Well thanks for that but I did read your posts, *@struggling8888*.

Maybe you should call a doctor if you’re mentally at rock bottom?

Maybe you should stop being such a bully.

We are all struggling and it’s ok to rant, but really; what will you actually achieve by that?

Support? Social connection? Empathy? (From those able to manage the latter)

WHAT THE FUCK?! How am I a bully? What else do you do if you’re severely depressed?

Well, you are clearly a lovely person brutus! And the irony of your post urging the OP to get online support. That is what she is doing! Or trying to, amidst people telling others to fuck off.

Personally I don’t want or need to be taking pills. Just want to enjoy my baby. Maybe OP feels the same?

Have you actually read my other posts?

No you really are bullying brutus

Ok I’m hiding this thread now. Just trying to give a bit of practical advice.

WHAT THE FUCK?! How am I a bully? What else do you do if you’re severely depressed

Seriously? I’m actually gobsmacked by the stupidity of this post.

I think that would be best.

Hi OP, I’m a baby lockdown mum too and I 100% agree with you. It’s bloody awful, each day is a struggle and I’m so sad for my children. Fuck this shit, I’m not complying anymore! Enough is enough!

Some real lack of compassion from all sides on this post.

OP, this lockdown has been the hardest yet for many people. Make sure you take time to do something for yourself. That might be exercise via an app, reading, long bath. Whatever works for you.

I feel for everyone. Those who have lost people to covid, to suicide, whose mental health is at rock bottom, who are scared to go outside, those who live alone, the nurses, doctors, the furloughed and unemployed.

It is utterly shit for everyone. Your feelings won't last forever, and unfortunately some people will be living with the after effects of covid for many years to come if not the rest of their lives.

That doesn't lessen how you feel right now but brighter days are coming.

I had really bad anxiety after having my first baby and relied heavily on my mum, I genuinely don’t think I would have made it through the lockdown had I had her then.

Actually though to answer that question, things you can do when severely depressed and you’re not sure meds will help, exercise, go somewhere new, see friends or family, read, self care (baths etc - difficult with a baby) all these things are hard during lockdown.

I am definitely not anti medication in any way. But it isn’t for me.

@Fembot123

I had really bad anxiety after having my first baby and relied heavily on my mum, I genuinely don’t think I would have made it through the lockdown had I had her then.

Same. I had severe PND and my family pulled me through. I'm dreading giving birth in a couple of months and just not knowing when I'll be able to see any of them.

And a belated congratulations to everyone who has had a baby in lockdown, everything else will be a breeze after this 🤞🏻❤️

My baby is gorgeous but not the best napper in the world definitely better when out of the house. It’s hard finding places to go and things to do. I’ve been travelling to places for walks, probably against the rules but I’m walking alone. And it has saved my sanity to be honest. DP is WFH so I feel bad when the baby cries and disturbs him.