Thread for anyone who is just totally miserable and fed up

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Have a whinge, let it out, no judgement.

I’m not doing well. And I don’t feel like I should say that because others are doing far worse but I am sodding miserable. Every day feels pointless. I feel completely stuck and I know things are going to be hard for a long time. They were already hard before covid. It’s worse now.

It's absolutely rubbish!

I'm sorry your feeling this way but most people I'm in contact with on social media feel the same too.
The weather isn't helping and the news has been grim for months so no wonder people are fed up.
I'm lucky I don't have any children as how folk are home schooling and working too well , I take my hat off to them.
I hope you have a better day tomorrow
One day at a time is all anyone can do.

Thank you @the80sweregreat. The news is grim. Im avoiding it where ever possible.

I'm having one of those days! I have 2 jobs one is agency based (education) and I've been off with covid since October half term. I've had a long haul road to recovery and I'm not fully there yet. Well being agency I didn't get any SSP and now they aren't furloughing me so I just feel lost. I've been looking at work but its such a difficult time

So you get no wage at all??

@amyj606

I'm having one of those days! I have 2 jobs one is agency based (education) and I've been off with covid since October half term. I've had a long haul road to recovery and I'm not fully there yet. Well being agency I didn't get any SSP and now they aren't furloughing me so I just feel lost. I've been looking at work but its such a difficult time

I'm sorry to appear ignorant here, but are you able to claim UC or any other kind of benefits? Might be worth putting a thread up on money matters as I'm sure someone can help you?

Just my sort of people.
Totally fed up. I hate my house and everyone in it at present.
I want to be alone!

I’m struggling this evening, had a good day but I don’t know what happened tonight - I put the dc to bed, dp is out caring for his dm tonight so won’t be home til tomorrow and I’ve just slumped. Calling every inanimate object a cunt, taking angrily to the cats, non stop and out of control eating like I’m punishing myself and as I cut another slice of cake mutter how much of a twat I am.

I’ve coped relatively well over the last few months and we have been fortunate in many ways but I just find myself getting into these rages and feelings of self hatred and self destruction that I’ve never had before. I’ll be fine again in the morning but still, it’s shit.

Thanks for the place to rant!

Going to pour a drink and listen to some music and dance in the living room before going to bed with a good book.

I collected my dog’s ashes today. I swear the last lockdown was easier because he was here.

Me

I feel like absolute crap. I'm on maternity leave with a baby who is lovely but also hard work. DH is working overtime all the time (not his fault, and he helps with DC but he's exhausted). I'm so lonely and utterly fed up.

Yeah it’s the loneliness that’s killing me too. And I’m a total introvert but this is just awful.

So sorry to hear about your dog OP 😔

I’m another who is thoroughly fed up. I didn’t find any of last year ridiculously hard but this January absolutely sucks. Every day is like a dark, miserable Groundhog Day. I am forced to spend every working day on tedious zoom meetings and I have such bad brain fog I think I’ve forgotten how to interact with people. I go days without leaving the house and can’t be bothered with anything. I look forward to the working day ending / the weekends and then I’m like....oh....there’s absolutely nothing to do.

I’m fed up too.
I feel like I’m drowning in my children. I love them but my 4 year old doesn’t sleep and so I am spending 14-16 hours a day with her, and schooling her sister. I’m looking at my hard won but woefully paying vocational career going up in smoke ☹️ Because I can’t work and home school. I just can’t.

This is it exactly! There’s nothing to do. Nothing to look forward to. Every day the same miserableness.

I hear you all. It is unutterably shit.

Have been at home all day with three kids. The youngest of whom has SN and behaviour issues - he has a blister on his toe but won’t wear a plaster or any type of shoe and every time he bangs his toe (every five minutes as he leaps around like a mountain goat) he screams at the top of his lungs. It is ear piercingly loud. This causes my older kids to be embarrassed if they have their cameras on in a teams meeting.

I went to bed early after taking an hour and a half to get youngest to sleep only to be disturbed by my older ds as there is a bat flapping round his room. Dh currently trying to catch it with a fishing net

I got three hours sleep last night so was hoping to get to sleep early tonight. Think youngest ds won’t be able to wear his shoes tomorrow due to blister so will be stuck in the house instead of going to his hub school and tomorrow will be a repeat of today... and on it goes.

I watched Groundhog Day in the first lockdown- wouldn’t t do that again, too close to the reality.

Terrible weather. Tiny amounts of daylight. It will be coming up a year since my surgery was "postponed." Received an NHS letter postponing another clinic until June. Menopause. Feel like my body is just crumbling now.

I've given up healthy eating in favour of chocolate this evening.

So utterly fed up. I am on maternity leave and I am so annoyed that I am having to spend it like this. We meet other mums for walks and that really is the highlight of my week. Everything else just feels so drab and boring. I had such plans for the things I wanted to do with my little one and where I wanted to take them. I am just holding out hope for a normalish spring and summer before I go back to work. It’s such a precious time and one I won’t get back so I don’t want to wish the days away then on the other hand I can’t wait to see the back of Jan and Feb.

I feel so sorry for anyone having a baby during this last year. It’s just not fair.

Same shit different day.

I've been taking it really hard, can be some times quiet and withdrawn.

I seen an video on Tyson Fury talking about mental health and anxiety. He said something along the lines of taking each day as it comes, looking at getting through the day and thinking I'll feel better tomorrow.

Its helped. I always used to think about how were locked up, can't do anything for months, how long will this go on for? But I just try to take each day, each week as it comes now. I try to think, right, what can I do tomorrow? What can i do this Saturday?

It really is hard.

It is very depressing. I am definitely at the low point... I remember it last time but last year seemed much more promising with beautiful weather and a real sense of everyone in the same boat, everyone pulling together... just much more optmistic.

@mangocoveredlamb

I’m fed up too. I feel like I’m drowning in my children. I love them but my 4 year old doesn’t sleep and so I am spending 14-16 hours a day with her, and schooling her sister. I’m looking at my hard won but woefully paying vocational career going up in smoke ☹️ Because I can’t work and home school. I just can’t.

Mango don’t home school. I know you feel guilty for not doing it but the kids will bounce back and you can fill in any gaps later if you need to. Don’t give up your job

@Candleinthewindow

Me

I feel like absolute crap. I'm on maternity leave with a baby who is lovely but also hard work. DH is working overtime all the time (not his fault, and he helps with DC but he's exhausted). I'm so lonely and utterly fed up.

Me too. Shit isn't it? I love my baby so much but I feel like I've been robbed of my maternity leave and it just makes me sad.

As I walked the dog round block 2nd time today in the rain felt bit down.
My toddler keeps asking about baby ballet see her friends thats shut and delayed her nursery / preschool start.
Feel sad can't take mine out not even corner shop.
My 11 year old misses going anywhere.
Home school is hard but school understand we did what we can.

So sorry for your loss. I'm having a shit day too. DH is a recovering alcoholic, been doing amazing but fell off the wagon 2 days ago so I've had to kick him out and I dont know where he is. Worried sick about him and also about my cousin who's suicidal and dropping in and out of contact. DD12s school is completely disorganised with teachers not following the timetable and changing lessons willy nilly so she is super stressed trying to keep up with her work
and been a grumpy, attitudey pain all day, weve argued loads and now I feel awful about it. DD2 is still not asleep and I've got a million things to do when she finally drops off. I've been lying on the floor next to her bed for over 2 hours and I'm 8 months pregnant with a bad back so its not the most enjoyable. I've argued with my sister over absolutely nothing just because were both stressed and I'm hormonal. Just fed the fuck up today.

It is a hard hard time.

Sending all of you a hug