Since the 8pm announcement I have...

[ilikexmas]

Cried
Had 3 cups of tea
Finished off the Xmas biscuits ( about 12 biscuits)
Cried again
Stared into space
Wrapped myself tightly in my duvet
Now I feel like crying again but will go to bed.

FML!!!

For the first time since September I've felt some sort of relief mixed with stress about what's to come.
I know I can protect my family now...
I've also cried as I know I now won't see my mum before they move away

I've worked my emotions through. I'll restart dry Jan tomorrow, although I was always under 14 units, I'll make a home schooling plan, I'll seek an exam extension and I'll work late.

I'll continue RED for energy and plough through the next 6 weeks. I'll going to start 10 min meditation.

Since 8pm I've had 3 teams meetings with different parts of my Schools SLMT/TRUST
Cried a small amount
Spoken to about 30 parents on the phone.
Emailed about 30 others
Thought about crying some more
Worked out whether I'll home work (decided not this week apart from Thursday but probably full time from Monday - school finance)
Spoken to my colleague who wants to be based in school full time - she cannot work remotely
Then after solving all that shite finally sat down with my 15 year old to explain GCSEs are cancelled
Consoled my 19 year old who now cannot go back to get university flat share with her friends
Poured a gin
Drank the gin
Fuck it all!!!

Spent the whole time on my laptop as SMT in a primary school trying to sort all this shit out.

Felt massively relieved that Bojo is finally doing something to try to prevent more deaths.

*spaceghetto

Daily Mail, Facebook, Mumsnet, Daily Mail, Facebook Mumsnet, Revels, Daily Mail, nuts, Facebook, cup of tea, Mumsnet*

Glad it’s not just me that surfs the internet like that!!! 😂🤣

Cried whilst trying to calculate what makes early years practitioners immune to this virus. Also whilst listening to my nursery manager saying it's alright as the parents are happy to send in! Oh that's effing alright then. No " are you all ok with it" or anything, just a comment saying if you need a letter for a keyworker place let us know, see you tomorrow as normal!

Great.

All after a shitty day personal wise. Never mind dry January, I might do wet January after not drinking for several years

Texted my WhatsApp group with my mates lots.
Brave face for my DD (it's just us).
Prepped lunch for tomorrow (wfh and homeschooling for us both).
Tried to get some perspective.

Told my three DC that unless they stop being so overjoyed (fucking annoying) that I would ensure that they would be in school as we are both keyworkers this time round.(even though at 10,13 and 15) they can be home alone.They went to bed quickly and quietly. Mission accomplished.

Sent the parents of children in my class a deluge of messages reassuring them that remote learning will work brilliantly (no I'm not convinced either )
Set virtual work for tomorrow, informed the lucky few that they have won a keyworker place and can come to school tomorrow.
Screamed loudly at the computer for letting me down in my hour of need. Apologised to the cats for giving them the fright of their lives.
Exchanged approximately 64 Boris themed sweary memes with most of my address book. Come to bed to see how the rest of Mumsnet are doing.

@frustrationcentral I always do wet January as I don't drink the rest of the year!

I decided not to do it this year (bit skint, and a bit porky from Christmas indulging)
Under other circumstances it's fun!

Eaten a whole tub of guacamole and breadsticks, 3 custard creams, a handful of peanuts and a hot chocolate...been so good today too 😭

Come to peace with it.

Messaged various friends. Continued to freak out about the number of people currently in hospital, and the fact it took three weeks to peak after the summer lockdown.

Went back to the home office, and logged back in to continue my work on the vaccine deployment. There's a lot to do but it feels more important than ever. The pain worsened by having to be balancing it against my already extremely full time job in a heavily regulated area where I can't drop balls there either.

Ordered some hue light bulbs to cosy up my living room as I'm going to be spending so much time in it.

Organised and did a stock take on my secret snack cupboard.

Put the washing away.

Told myself I was not going to change my plans for this evening and give into wine and comfort eating as that was one thing I could control.

Made a cup of herbal tea.

Decided toe nails painted in a moody grey were not bringing me joy and painted them bright blue instead.

Broke out the wine in my new glass and am finishing off the Christmas Kettle Chips.

Broke news to kids.
Had stern word with my mother about not going into shops.
Ordered new laptop.
Coughed a lot.
Steroid tablets and lemsip.

Tried to prevent suicidal behaviour on the other MumsNet 8pm Boris announcement misery thread.

Alarming depression from several posters.

Speechless and horrified in equal measure as new experience and not sure how to help apart from my genuine offer to reach out and offer a telephone support call if those who feel so desperate would like to private message me.

Very concerning.

Fell asleep on the sofa. Thus making my fucked sleep cycle even more fucked.

The 4 of us haven't been out since March as shielding cev Dh. So no change here really.

In a way I am relieved. We had decided the rate of infection was too high to send them in (800 in 100,000) and were told we would definitely be fined if we didn’t comply and they missed more than 10 consecutive sessions.

I have eaten a tub of Ben and Jerry’s though.

@Xenobitch, we're ever so sorry but our guidelines dictate that we can't leave your post up. We're sorry also that you're feeling this way, and are relieved that your dog gives you such comfort. @etopp as well, we're so sorry that you are feeling so low.
We hope you don't mind, but when these posts are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

And to everyone else glum at today's news, we hear you very very much and goodness knows we share the feelings. Much love to everyone tonight who's not exactly sure how to greet tomorrow, particularly to all the key workers and most especially the teachers.
We'd raise a glass, but we're working.

Took out my anger and frustration by cleaning the bathroom: scrubbed it within an inch of its life. Then hoovered it.
Signed up for a fundraising challenge for a mental health charity - god knows we need people who can help in that area just now.
Got out my stash of books to read next : escapism desperately needed.

Sat with yr11 DC, who has spent the last two months revising so hard for mocks due next week.

Decided to go with the GCSEs don't matter, it's all about A levels line, but in all honesty I've been so so proud and in awe of the amount of work they've put in (with the expectation the actual exams may be cancelled) for them to not even get to sit mocks has broken me.

same as every other day. i’ve been shielding since march, pretty much. i suppose i’m ‘lucky’ as i’m disabled so nothing changes for me. i stopped drinking 7 years ago so that’s firmly off the table.

it does mean the surgery i was supposed to have last year is remaining firmly on the never-never, but i should be in group 4 for the vaccination.

so just another 6 weeks of counting the walls, trying and failing to get some help with my mental health as i finished a support group at christmas and am now rudderless, on 20 different medications and living with chronic arthritis pain as well as a broken brain.

plus ca change, and all that. nobody reads this far down anyway.

Explained to 8yo DS, comforted him over the local trip he’ll miss, put him to bed, comforted him over the fact he’s not seen his friends for 3 weeks and won’t for 6 more, put him back to bed, texted his dad to see if he qualifies as a key worker (maybe) or if he’s willing to cover any of the childcare this time (unlikely), texted my friends, texted 4 work colleagues who I know were close to the edge last time to check they’re doing okay (their kids are mostly at nursery so fingers crossed they have enough staff to open), and eaten aaaaalll the cheese.

I’m fairly sanguine but haven’t gone back to work after Christmas yet, by Friday I’m sure I’ll have gone through the full gamut of emotions again

Had 2 cups of tea, gave the baby a bottle, ate some chocolate, told my MIL I cannot see her after her offer of help today (I have a 2 year old and an 8 week old and my family live abroad) because my SIL wants to bubble with them so she can 'have a break' ..... from the 2 year old that she has in nursery 3 days a week, and gives to her own MIL on the weekends ... also she doesnt work ....

I tried to convince DH that it will be fine. He is working in peoples houses. He is sad that he has no idea when he will see his family again. He went on his playstation to numb things for a while.

Now feeding DD her bottle, wondering what world I have brought her into.