Since the 8pm announcement I have...

[ilikexmas]

Cried
Had 3 cups of tea
Finished off the Xmas biscuits ( about 12 biscuits)
Cried again
Stared into space
Wrapped myself tightly in my duvet
Now I feel like crying again but will go to bed.

FML!!!

Drunk wine

Cried

Drunk wine

Cried

(Actually I was doing both at the same time)

Gone to bed. Hiding under the covers better than hitting the bottle

Ate cheese and biscuits additional to plan.
Discussed new rules with friends
Tried to figure out whether I’m allowed to see my bubble person who lives half an hour away in the next county. None the wiser.

Don't know if this link will work, but if it does it might cheer you up a bit:

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Taken the dog out where she did a lot of random angry barking at nothing and a big poo. Animals are so in tune with us.

Yes mumsnet I picked it up 😀

Read all 22 pages of lockdown rules on gov.uk to work out what the actual story is.

Plastered on a positivity face for my 2 x late teen dc who are 6th form/uni and talked with each of them about what is likely to happen/what they can do (cf what Twitter/their mates say they can do)

Taken in a cup of tea to DH who went back to work today (wfh) and is still on calls some 14 hours in.

Sent a cheery WhatsApp to my 82 year old mother who had sent a sad and grumpy one.

There was something in the New York Times the other week that said that mid-aged women were the “shock absorbers of society”. That’s exactly how I feel.

I'm sorry for all those struggling but to be honest I am quite relieved I don't have to do my normal lunch shift in a primary school where I would normally be working with hundreds of children with very little social distancing. I am not in the best of health and I was really worried about catching it and maybe passing it on to my dh who is in the vulnerable group.

Written the word "fuck" around 250 times

Laid on sofa pretty blankly. Thkight about everyone with children at school and university. Thought about nhs staff and the older and vulnerable and in money difficulty or prison etc etc. It just goes on doesn’t it. Then the yet again new variant. Each time anyone said ‘but of course this time it is different’ and then talked about the vaccine I’m afraid I assumed they meant that the difference is the virus is mutating so quickly now.

Seem to be stuck here.
Feels less shocking than March but very much more awful and worrying.

Have been pretty positive throughout. Feels I’m going to have to really dig deep to get back to Some equilibrium.
Support all. We will get through.

Ordered a case of lovely wine. Fuck dry January.

Definitely gained weight

Happy to share the joy

Thanked the gods I can still work (nursery)

Had a WhatsApp conversation with my room leader who can't come in until she finds out whether her child has a keyworker place at school

Realised I have to run the room

Worked out who can't come to work because of childcare issues

Panicked

Eaten the last mince pies

Found lots of funny memes shared by a friend on social media that have lightened the mood no end 😊

Now laid in bed with my LO on me, contemplating eating some biscuits (diet starts tomorrow 😳 again)

Not bothered to put DD8 to bed as don't need to go to school tomorrow. She's back on ipad. I've eaten a galaxy bar as can't be arsed with healthy eating. Thinking how I'm going to work this week.

Cried inside.
Ate a bag of sweets pulling me off my diet I've been so good with for last 3 months. (I'm tee total)
Dashed to supermarket to buy printer ink and paper.
Panic attack. (Three kids and I am working from home full time)

I've wished I wasn't a nurse multiple times today, this has increased this evening. My choice now is do I send my DC to the school hub or do I take my parents and in laws up on the offer of childcare. So do I risk their health, my dad especially. Where are my DC more at risk? With me and dh as key works, are we likely to bring it home at some point anyway. I just don't know what to do. Not to mention I have an underlying heart condition. I am scared, as I have been all along.

Eaten half a packet of chocolate , had a cry,
ranted at situation with partner, attempted angry yoga.
Resisted the gin, barely, as tomorrow is a work (from home) day.

I'm currently on mat leave with a new baby. I have two boys (10 and 13 years) half of the time. I miss them sooooo much in the weeks they are at their dad's so although it's hard work with them all at home I'm looking forward to being with them this week. But I have had a glass of wine, I'll admit!!

Cried

Rollie and cup of tea

Cried again

Another rollie cup of tea

Cried again and had a coffee

Just settling down now and making a pro active list of things I need to do between homeschooling and house shit

Had a hot chocolate, eaten some left overs that don’t fit with my diet and sank into a depression that will no doubt last till March.

Oh hell can I get the car mot'd? Need it doing this month.

Our announcement in Scotland was this afternoon so we went for a good long walk, visited iceland and filled up the freezer and got ready to continue wfh!

Rang my mum.
Argued with DH about his changing his hours so I can go to work.
Doom scrolled on Twitter.
Eaten last of Christmas chocolates.

Done a lot of WhatsApping and Mumsnetting
Eaten a satsuma.
Watched University Challenge.
Now watching 24 Hours in Police Custody - which is actually working in distracting me. An incredible story.