Since the 8pm announcement I have...

[ilikexmas]

Cried
Had 3 cups of tea
Finished off the Xmas biscuits ( about 12 biscuits)
Cried again
Stared into space
Wrapped myself tightly in my duvet
Now I feel like crying again but will go to bed.

FML!!!

Stuffed leftover pimped up takeaway in my gob.

Rather OTT cleaning of the kitchen in a displacement activity.

Soothed 2 overwrought primary children who despite seeing positive about homeschooling were both still awake 2 hrs after bedtime and 1 in floods of tears about monsters.

Now sitting in bed with them in the dark. Thankfully the little one is now snoring but I think the big one is still awake poor sausage.

Desperate for the chocolate orange which I won in a bet with DH that schools would close.

@lockdownfeelings what on earth is protein cream?!

Had a cup of tea

Taught DSD9 how to get dried unicorn snot out of the bath (VERY stubborn remnants of last nights blue glittery bath bomb, two bath washes later 🙄)

Had a very in-depth, complex choosing process for tonight's bath bomb - it's green glitter, mermaid tears, we reckon.

Text mum a picture of the dog being cute with his cuddly carrot.

Now watching 24 hours in police custody

Was at work so missed the broadcast.

Watched on catch up

Had a GnT... just having another. No work tomorrow by the looks of it. Awaiting confirmation

missmouse101 - pointless comment.
So basically Wales has had kids off school from the Christmas holidays? As we all have. No difference. The angst is because we are now faced with another 2 months- THAT'S why we are loosing our shit.

Had even more flashbacks than usual. Tried to mentally work out if my hospital bag has everything it needs without having to actually look at the bastard thing and upset myself even more. Cried about all the extra people who've ended up traumatised this last year.

Good times.

Eaten the Christmas chocolates
Checked school and nursery pages for announcements
Had a chuckle watching beat the chasers
Eaten more chocs

Messaged DH who is at our old house we are selling to tell him house moves can continue, which is huge relief as we are out of savings from me not being able to work since schools closed as SN child no EHCP but needs full-time 1 to 1. Messaged EA with same and went on MN property thread when communal relief crying is going on.

Told DD in y10 and DS y9 exams are cancelled and no school until at least Feb half term - not great news for us but hospitals are full.

Read the full document.

And basically trying to get sale through at speed of light before rules change again but days from exchange so looking hopeful.

Listened to music, ate cola laces or how coop has put cola lances. Drank pineapple juice.

Still to eat dinner. Going through DS's home learning and e-mails and discussing DD's - no science teachers atm for 2/3 and studying for gcses so finding alternatives as nothing being set in those.

Broke the news to Y11 DS who is unsure how he feels. Mock results aren’t going to be great (he did mocks in December) but also his teachers know how much he struggles with exams. No idea how this will work out for him.

On the plus side, he did say he was glad we got to be at home together more. I wfh so we tend to have lunch together which is so nice.

Rang my DD who frustratingly only lives a mile away but we are strict about not mixing so only seeing her for the odd walk. We have decided to read the same book and have a mini book club for two!!!

Rang my parents who are gutted but not that surprised. They miss my DBro and I and SIL and grandkids.

Sighed about work. I’m supporting the vaccine roll out and it feels all the more important now but it’s so bloody stressful.

Trying to be positive on the whole. I’m going to be 50 next month and hadn’t made any plans thank goodness. Have decided to award myself a different birthday date this year to be decided at my discretion!!!

Shrugged shoulders, same sh1t, different day and carried on as normal I.e. take things one day at a time and if things take a bit longer, they take a bit longer

I can’t change what is happening hence one day at a time

Be interesting in 4 years time come the GE though 😳

I think my mum in law's funeral can go ahead next week. She died on Christmas Eve, so sad times. I don't know if family will be able to travel from London to pay their respects.

Midwife

@Catsneezies it's a protein shake (milk of preference + protein powder of preference + stevia (optional)) made on the sauce pan with added cornflour to make it cream up while it cooks...it's warm, indulgent and addictive.Try!

@missmouse101 Thsts schools closing at the same time as English ones did, are you sure there is no angst about them staying closed??

Also I beg to differ Ex’s business tanked due to the repeated Welsh lockdowns so I can assure you he’s a bit bloody angsty! (Not that he pays anything but still).

Read the document about what we can and can’t do. Ranted that premier league football can continue. Found no mention of outdoor children’s sport (guess they’ve been forgotten again).

Called my friends
Sent a lot of memes about how old our kids will be when lockdown is finally lifted forever
Felt sick
Discussed with DH what the f* we are going to do
Are a whole packet of chocolate buttons
In bed now looking at Amazon for things to cheer me up

I might cry but think the reality will hit me tomorrow morning...

Cracked open to the gin, send loads of texts to friends who are also dreading home schooling again, and have begged a friend who has been made redundant to do online maths lessons with DD (I’ll pay her, so win win), as there’s no way I’m attempting that again.

Eat garlic bread.
Ordered perfume.
Took half a diazepam.

Booked extra sessions with the children's tutor.

Booked some Outschool classes

(I have no faith in the school to educate them based on past experience)

Reassured the kids

Heard from my sister who has 2 kids with SEN and is very stressed.

Checked in with vulnerable relatives

Now about to spend till beyond Midnight rearranging any meetings where I have a say in the timings to make them a little more homeschool friendly

Totally breaking down about trying to do it all again

But epidemiologically I think it is the right decision. I just wish it wasn't so last minute!

Laid on my bed staring at my phone

Realised I will be expected to have GC, they both have hollow legs and I don't have enough food for them. Plenty for two pensioners. I wonder if their mother will condescend to provide any food this time, she never has before.

DH and I have seen off the selection pack that was the last of our Christmas chocolate. I'm supposed to be cutting down on caffeine but washed it down with two big mugs of tea!!

Sent 9 messages slagging off our business as usual school! I dont fucking care at the moment
Oh and I had a slice of toast with loads of butter

I didn;t listen to the announcement. We watched Only Connect. We even got a couple of answers right.

I have drunk some of the Prosecco I didn't get round to opening on Thursday night.

I have written a blues song for my son who was studying blues in his music lesson on zoom today

I am going to stop posting soon and go to bed.