Since the 8pm announcement I have...

[ilikexmas]

Cried
Had 3 cups of tea
Finished off the Xmas biscuits ( about 12 biscuits)
Cried again
Stared into space
Wrapped myself tightly in my duvet
Now I feel like crying again but will go to bed.

FML!!!

Purchased a new printer as the old one took such a battering in the last lockdown and now prints fuzzy 🤪

Drank another gin, consoles my dd who is turning 8 on Friday and was bitterly disappointed that she won’t see her friends for it.

Woke up at 3.45 because my body is shit and I never get a full nights sleep in these sorts of situations.

I did think to book another delivery slot got 2 weeks time though. Don't forget to get one. They will go quickly.

Stared with disbelief at our boiler that has chosen to stop working last night!! Am not looking forward to a very cold day ahead.

2021, you are not supposed to be like this!!!

Answered lots of agency staff questions as they won’t be needed.
Same old thing for me .couldnt sleep so much to be done but I’m pleased it’s been decided was sick of the will we won’t we.
In last stages of a dreadful divorce please God let him sign the last document.

@CrunchyCarrot

Stared with disbelief at our boiler that has chosen to stop working last night!! Am not looking forward to a very cold day ahead.

2021, you are not supposed to be like this!!!

Mine has stopped too. Please tell me how you've got it working again, if you have, without getting an engineer in.

I finished up the Christmas chocs. Comforting to see so many of us did.

Had a glass or two of wine. Watched Criminal Minds for some distraction.

I've tried to get DH to realise he can WFH and should become it's the right thing to do. It's fallen on deaf ears. I don't have the energy to fight with him over it but I'm seriously unimpressed with him!

Watched the face of my eldest dc sink after telling them it's remote learning from here on in until further notice. My ASD DC has cried most of yesterday because of back to school nervousness, then meltdown due to change in routine last minute (cheers for that Boris, if only we'd known a few hours sooner that would have been easier!).

Tried not to stress eat the kitchen bare. Not slept due to mulling over the conversation with my manager that I need to have today telling him I will do my very best but my health comes first and ive just returned ended phased return due to a month off work due to stress. Full time hours and this will break me again 😔.

Had my DM on phone in tears as she's now not coping well and her anxiety is increasing, mood declining because shes on her own. Dmil is also feeling the strain. Both rely on us to look out for them as over 75. Neither tech savvy so can't help with homeschooling and I don't have the energy to teach them how to as well as everything else. They try to help but it's like adding to the dependants not helping with the load.

Drained, knackered, worn down, feel and look 30 years older than I am. One hour at a time.

well thankfully I got called into work for a few hours at 8.30 pm so that at least stopped me cracking open the wine (again!)
Have been up since 4 though stressing about all the implications/ wondering about keyworker school places/feeling sad for my dc/dreading the knock on effects for my (already horrendously busy) job(NHS clinician in mental health services)

I've got 3 hours of e learning to fit in to my regular job today too to enable me to be a vaccine prescriber - which actually feels quite a positive thing to do

And thankfully have lots of food in, have future delivery slots booked, and have been stocking up on printer ink since June - so trying to focus on the small positives I can control and not stress about the rest (easier said than done)

I spoke to DS in year 11 who doesnt seemed phased about the exam situation, he is a lovely lad but a bit on the lazy side god knows how exam results will turn out. He sat mocks just before xmas and seemed to think they went ok - who the fuck knows!!

DD in year 12 is setting up a work station in her bedroom ready for online classes today. She is really motivated so will be ok at home although misses her relatively new boyfriend.

I am a nurse so no change for me there. I consider myself to be incredibly fortunate that my dc are older and can be left home alone, also that I can still work.

Much love to you all who are struggling it really is the shittiest of times which are so very bleak

I was dreaming all night that I had tasks to complete before this morning and then I couldn't go out.
I don't even live in the UK!

Mine has stopped too. Please tell me how you've got it working again, if you have, without getting an engineer in.

@jessstan1

Well, we checked the wall fuse, which can be the problem - it's fine. Electricity supply OK. It might be a circuit board failure unfortunately. DP is going to remove the cover when he wakes today and check the fuses on the circuit board, but honestly I think we'll have to call out an engineer. We've been through the troubleshooting guide last night (it's a Worcester boiler) and none of the simple things were wrong with it.

Have you got any lights showing on yours? What make is it, there may be help online and troubleshooting guides.

I'm already freezing, it's just 14'C indoors, temp falling as outside it's -1. Sitting in jacket with woolly hat on, gloves, under a rug!

Mine has stopped too. Please tell me how you've got it working again, if you have, without getting an engineer in.

@jessstan1 why can’t you get an engineer in?

Cried and cried. By the time lockdown is being reviewed in February I won't have seen my partner since 22nd November 😭.

I hate this.

@fucknuckle - I’ve got this far, and I have these for you

I was left wondering if this second (proper) lockdown will be easier or harder for me, as during the March lockdown I was still living with my abusive DH. I had plans to leave that were thwarted, so had to wait it out until restrictions were lifted.

Now in a safe place, but a very lonely one.

I plan to try and walk with a different friend every day... even if it’s 10 mins around the block, meditate regularly, and deal with a stash of wool I bought in March, thinking I’d take up crocheting.

Oh, and drink gin. Obvs.

@Nomnomarrgh

When I was having to self-isolate the track and trace chap said lots of people are gardening to stay sane.

That’s ok in April through to November But gardening? Now? Noooooo Brrrr

@louisejxxx , happy birthday to your daughter!

Just felt a bit resigned.
We were already in tier 4
Two hours earlier had booked a holiday abroad, after which I did not feel elated, cheerful and happy as I would normally do and even then I had no idea if I would be going.
Had been in town earlier and sad to see the non essential shops closed.
It wasn’t as if it was rammed either, even In The run up to Christmas.
Just seems very pointless.
Watched two episodes of humans...and then headed to bed to toss and turn for more hours Thani care to count.

I can’t cry.
I’m numb and hollow.

I put my "do not disturb " on my phone so that I don't get alerts from my team having their rants about it. I'm not absorbing that this time round. Last time they broke me. Not this time.

@missmouse101

Guys, come on! Wales has been in full lockdown since December 20th. There wasn't half this angst.

That's like 1 extra day in terms of schools being off. Which is what people are stressed about. As load of non essential retail was closed anyway due to the various restrictions.

@AlwaysLatte

Are my kids the only ones who are delighted?

My teen is verging on suicidal and I have to go to work.

1. Let ds celebrate no school for the foreseeable by letting all his budgies out, and giving them some special treats (mullet)§

@Witchend thank you I am now imagining a row of budgies with mullets and I do needed that laugh.

@ancientgran

Realised I will be expected to have GC, they both have hollow legs and I don't have enough food for them. Plenty for two pensioners. I wonder if their mother will condescend to provide any food this time, she never has before.

You need to have that conversation then and lay down some ground rules with the entitled mare, asap. Especially as this could roll on for months.

Said 'fuck' a lot.

Comforted my daughter re A levels.

Spent £1000 on a spin bike.

Booked a Tesco delivery and had two glasses of fizzy as I’m furloughed again.