I have tried to be calm, collected, resilient and pragmatic throughout this entire shit show but today, for some reason, I'm starting to feel as though I'm losing it a bit.
I check in on this thread and a few others because I have to try and keep one step ahead running my non-essential shop, my DP is in a close contact profession and since being allowed back to work it is fortunate that we have managed to keep body and soul together, just about, for which I am of course appropriately grateful.
I live in the BCP area which is showing up today as a red hotspot according to some news reports and charts etc. Is it because of Uni students? Pubs and bars? General mixing? The trouble is no matter how hard one tries, any face to face contact seems to be a risk. My shop is a quirky niche place and we've had an uptick in students because there's precious little of interest in the area retail wise. We're following all the rules to the letter. People I know are now posting they have had positive tests on FB - I haven't seen them in person but they are local and we all circulate on the same scene as it were.
I've managed not to be "paranoid" up to now, rather more "aware" as instructed.
It's my Dad's 81st birthday on Tuesday. I have arranged to visit him and my 78 y/o DSM and am now terrified that I shouldn't but then there is all this stuff about new restrictions coming in.
I'm honestly losing the plot a bit here - can anyone, looking at the data so far, give me an idea of what is likely to happen - which I know is like asking for the moon right now - have been watching Sky News and checking the Guardian feed and it's all "wait for tomorrow". I hate the uncertainty.
to everyone, sorry for any potential de-rail but didn't want to start a whole thread if someone can say "get a grip" here in relation to what's actually happening.