Oh bollocks, I'm really nervous about my holiday now!

[stopitkenneth]

We're due to head to a French campsite in four weeks (driving all the way). We've cancelled two holidays due to COVID, Malta at Easter and Mellorca now. We decided a couple of weeks ago that we'd try for France as quarantine had lifted and I was able to get comprehensive insurance.
But now I'm really worried about needing to quarantine when we get back!

I know, I know, booking anything now was optimistic and a bit stupid. But we really REALLY want to get away (I'm frontline NHS,I need a bloody holiday). And it's hard to see how rates in France could be worse than what we've got here.

At no point have my workplace says that we shouldn't be booking holidays abroad. So if I do have to quarantine on my return, then I'm hoping they'll either support me to work from home, or I'm happy to take the two weeks unpaid. I'm hoping that because I booked it during the time that there was no quarantine, they can't come down hard on me. But I'm now really worried.
Argh!

The thing is in real life I am naturally risk averse. I was totally out of my comfort zone initially. I came away as we needed a complete break following the horrendous year or more we've had, especially Dh and dd.
I spent a long while chatting things through with my consultant before agreeing to come away.
It took a while for me to move from being at home locked away and 'safe.'

But with gradual changes and a sensible chat with my consultant and others I decided I needed, for my own sake, to move forward. I was getting increasingly anxious, unable to sleep, worried about everything and everyone, and still unable to prevent my loved ones from dying. So taking gradual steps to go out and about, attend funerals, then move to going out and meeting people again albeit from a distance. And now I'm away, abroad, and happy that I feel safe doing what I'm doing.

It will put me in a good position for returning to school in September. Whether or not I'll feel okay without the precautions I currently have I don't know - but if not I could consider stopping the medication that causes the most risk. Yes, it may mean I have more pain and potential an I'd ease in long term joint damage, but it may Neman that when dealing with 270 children and their parents and other staff I am less at risk of complications from Covid. It's a tricky choice - one Im due to chat to my consultant about again before I return.

But I'll do it. I'll go back to school and do my very best for those young children. I'll teach them to the very best if my absolute. And hopefully I'll stay safe and well throughout.

In the mean time when I return home I will get back to ensuring our home provision online is okay and get it ready as our back up support incase of local lockdown or class isolations.