I feel scared...

[MyNameWas]

I’ve been fine for a while but feel really down today ...feel scared.
I’m scared about catching the virus-
Scared about looming job loses
Scared about the so called second wave
Scared I’ll not be able to fly for a while to meet my family
Scared about the lack of political leadership and social unrest
Feeling really low...not sure how to pull myself out of this

It'll pass. We humans live through a lot. I don't know your area nor personal risk factors, but might it help to look up how many weekly nee infections are in your borough? (Ours has dwindled way down, I find the lack of new infections calming in a very factual way...)

(New not nee)

I didn't mean to be dismissive of your fears, I hope you don't see it that way. If you're severely struggling then your GP might be able to help.

I hear you. I've hit a wall this week too. I miss my mum and she can't fly to see us. She's missing seeing her last grandchild as a baby. It breaks my heart.
I've just reached the end of my tether with it all. The uncertainty, the worry and then just being so bored all the time. Life with small children is mundane as it is, and now it's even harder.

Definitely talk to your GP if it's getting too much. Theres so much uncertainty now, it's an unsettling time.

I try to stay away from reading too much. No one really knows and one article says there will be 2nd wave, the next that things are improving...

Don’t watch this BBC documentary on the frontline with an Italian doctor. It’s scared me again watching this.

I feel the same, watching Glastonbury over the weekend was so bittersweet . I don't feel like I can tell friends in RL as they all seem to be just seeking the positives, which is great but I have to acknowledge just how bloody sad it all is too 😔

@B9008 I had to turn it off!

Thank you all for the responses. It’s really difficult to hang onto a glimmer of hope as there is always an article or news item that squashes it...

Do something;

go for a walk
wash your hair
put out some crumbs and watch the birds
phone someone you know who lives alone
put on some music and sing or dance. Or both.

I've stopped watching all those awful programmes, I was hooked on watching them for weeks, that way lies madness, honestly

I heard this advice 'choose carefully what you focus on be Aude it will grow' so put your focus on family, the meals for the day, the garden or nearest park, learning something new for your career, a new hobby or skill, the TV series you want to watch.

Don't focus on your health, the stupid news, other people's misfortune, your finances, your worries.

I am scared, I wasn’t, I was living in a dreamland thinking we could resume some sort of normal life from the beginning of July. Leicester has proved that’s not possible, the government have lied, they lied when they said children could not transmit the virus, they lied when they said schools would be safe and I believed them. Covid has particularly affected schools in Leicester, Matt Hancocks own words.

I'm not scared. But I am Tense.

I don't give a flying fig about the virus hurting me or mine. I'm fatalistic about that.
But everything to do with the economic fallout from control measures and taking years to recover; I can't get used to those things.

Me too. I wish they hadn’t rushed to open everything up to help the economy. We were getting somewhere and we needed to put keeping the virus at bay as a top priority. Otherwise the economy will suffer anyway from further lockdowns.

I’m absolutely terrified. Not of the virus. But at the thought not of nothing ever going back to ‘normal’.

Yes I want to know how long we have to wear masks for on buses and trains

I don't have a car we use buses and trains all the time. Not just a short journey.
The thought of a mask fills me with dread
So that day trips don't appeal anymore
My life has got really small
And me and my daughter used to have so much fun going places
And perhaps people will think this is selfish but it's how I feel

The real normality will return.
We are sociable creatures.
We need an economy.

One day this will all be like some collective, indistinct bad dream.
It's tough not knowing when the real normal will be back, but it will come.

Now some restrictions are easing, I'm setting a weekly place to go and look forwards to.
This week is the zoo.
I think a farm next week.

@purpleme12

I don't have a car we use buses and trains all the time. Not just a short journey. The thought of a mask fills me with dread So that day trips don't appeal anymore My life has got really small And me and my daughter used to have so much fun going places And perhaps people will think this is selfish but it's how I feel

It's not selfish. It all matters. The big. The small. Dismissing it, and hiding it lets the feeling grow worse. It's important to acknowledge it. You are so very not alone with these feelings.

Thank you for the responses..yes I need to go back to baby steps..take each day at a time

I've been scared since I got my shielding letter. Now I'm scared but sick of it. I want my life back , I want to go home to see my parents , to see the ocean , infact I want to see anything that isn't other houses. I just keep telling myself that I've come this far and eventually the tide will turn.

@BogRollBOGOF thank you that's so kind

I have health anxiety which makes it hard. I'm disinfecting everything that comes in the house including my DH from work.

Saying that, I'm not sure how scared I am of the virus. None of us are particularly high risk, 4 kids and me and DH have no health problems that we know of although I have low vitamin d levels.

My main sadness comes from the thought of normality not returning. I have 2 jobs that I'm furloughed from and I do 2 voluntary jobs that aren't going on at the moment. With those and 4 kids doing activities, my life is usually busy and interesting and now I spend my days doing the same mundane thing.

My eldest daughter was leaving school this year and has a beautiful dress hanging up for her prom and I just feel so sad that the end to her schooling has ended like this.

Then I feel guilty as it's all small stuff in comparison to some people's issues.

I am not really scared anymore but I am feeling anxious about the future. I am separated from family and I am also worried about the impact on my job, the economy, my daughter’s education, etc.

I hear you. Apart from having a preemie baby at the peak of the pandemic in mid April, I gave hardly left the house aside from going for a walk, since early March. I lost my maternity package and now on statutory pay which is peanuts, and the government scrapped childcare funding increase for my 3 year old so when I return to work I don't know how I'm going to pay £100 per day to put both into care or if my company will even survive the pandemic. Im on a low wage already and we have struggled for years so this could really break us now. We had it all planned out financially but it's all gone to pot. I just keep trying to tell myself that at least my family are all healthy and not think about the hard times ahead.