Can I ask, OP, how you have been affected by COVID? I don't mean financially, I mean healthwise? Have you lost anyone? Do you have high risk family members that you have to live with or have some kind of caring responsibility for? Do you know of anyone who has been ventilated? Or hospitalised? Or who has just struggled to get over the virus?
I am going to hedge my bets and say you are young enough not to be worried with no underlying conditions and no caring responsibilities beyond your own children who also are healthy. I am also willing to bet you have not been affected by the virus and know of no one personally who is struggling.
I personally understand the economic situation and am worried about the long term impact of this. I get that there will be collateral damage and people will die due to delayed diagnosis and treatment of other conditions and that that is a ticking timebomb for all of us. But the immediacy of COVID, being high risk myself and having a child who is high risk, having an 85 year old mother with dementia, a colleague who has died (40s, no underlying conditions we are aware of) puts all that to one side. I want my family and friends alive and well and even if the risk is still small, it feels unmangeable. I might be at more risk of a car accident, but there is much I can do to mitigate that - take out insurance, drive carefully, drive defensively, get my eyes tested regularly..... There is literally nothing we can do to avoid getting this and we don't even get the fighting chance we might get in a car accident by swerving out of the way!
I am not hysterical, I see and understand the numbers, I am taking multi vitamins and a vitamin D supplement, trying to lose some excess weight...but the reality is it's in my face and not going away so that's my immediate priority. It is very difficult to shake.