I know IABU but I am totally fed up of lockdown

[detachablehoof]

So. I know I have an awful lot to be thankful for. My family are all in good health, we have no change in our income (yet), my husband is able to work from home, we have a big garden and had plenty of nice weather to enjoy it. There's just us two and our toddler in our house. We're a lot more fortunate than many.

But... I quite honestly don't know how much longer I can stand it. I'm grieving our old life, missing my parents so much, and finding it SO HARD to keep my toddler occupied at home.

I just want to go back to normal 😭 and it doesn't look like there will be a "normal" for a while. It's all just so uncertain and indefinite. It feels like there is nothing to look forward to any more and every day is a chore.

Anyone want to offer some solidarity?

I am missing going to museums and exhibitions terribly. That might sound like a minor inconvenience compared to what other people are going through.

The rainbows of all the children trapped inside are even making me feel sad now.

I’ve always found those quite sad. Reminds me of A Little Princess and all those other children’s books about orphans stuck in attics!

I kept hearing horrible rows from inside houses on my daily trudge around the village in late pregnancy a couple of weeks ago. The roads were empty but it didn’t feel peaceful, it felt like there was a lot of simmering tension :(

I sat amd cried in the bathroom earlier .Am sick of it we are in week 7 heading towards week 8

Keep telling myself am fortunate the kids are older so is easier and have a garden

Was the realisation that this is us to at least end of June realistically expecting in our situation be longer (both my younger 2 are in shielding)

But want normality school collage and days out to theme parks and museums etc

I'm fed up. Walked into town and discovered I can still get a latte though. I'm weirded by all the shaming going on. I feel like a can't trust people anymore.

@LilacTree1 I've signed a petition for ending the lockdown sooner rather than later; I now firmly believe it's no longer for the greater good, that time has gone. The hospitals have had their catch up time; some of them are now empty. This is no way for us to live. If this miserable existence is what we are being kept alive for, frankly I'd rather take my chances with the virus. I know some teenagers who are now very seriously depressed about their futures being messed up like this. There should be much more public anger about being micromanaged like this; I expect there will be when we're all licking our financial wounds, which keep getting worse every day of this lockdown, realising just how bad it is. People are killing themselves. And the way that the government keeps refusing to talk about exit strategy is adding insult to very serious financial injury.

The Government were stampeded into the lockdown by the mass hysteria of the media instead of following the original herd immunity plan. Expect the media hysteria to be ramped up to the full if there's any talk of an exit.

This was all on the dodgy advice of Neil Ferguson who has previous form for hysterical over reaction - I.e. foot and mouth disease.

@HMSSophie (and anyone else feeling the way you are) - I'm so sorry that you're feeling so invisible and uncared for. It's a horrible way to feel. Keep posting - people will always be here, any hour (I'm in Australia for e.g.) to talk to you.

@xtinak.
"I feel like I can't trust people anymore.'
Amazing how quickly people go into a Stasi mode, informing on their neighbours. I wonder how many countries will want to give up the police states we've willingly had imposed on us. The Chinese are used to it, of course.

Msfaina so which members of your family was you willing to sacrifice for the government's original plan

It’s crap @gingerninja4

Hello to all

wanderings thanks, I think it’s really important fir those of who are ready for normal life to let the government know. I’m a bit mystified because I wasn’t a big MSM or social media person before this. If it’s really the case that this lockdown, and the u turn in particular, was driven by perception of public opinion, it’s incredibly important that we all speak up.

I’ve lost track of who has said what here but I don’t feel I can trust anyone either - both for operating some kind of sound judgment and for snitching purposes. I’ve mentioned on other threads, mum lives in a tiny cul de sac. After dad died, we thought it good that neighbours were keeping an eye but now she’s been asked why she’s dared to walk out of the road to post a letter!

And because of this lockdown, the authorities expect her to receive help from strangers rather than her own children. Insanity.

We were just discussing whether or not I should move because we are living in fear of what shit they will do next.

This is not living. I’ve been accused of being hysterical for saying that here, but it’s not living at all. Resident rage (tower block) was very loud last night but who can blame them?

I’ve been told on MN that I’m a conspiracy theorist because I wasn’t worried about the virus. I have no way of knowing what real life people think because now, which friend will say “I went to see my brother” because who can anyone trust?

My grandson came for two Hours today.
Normally he stays for tea but didn’t want to push it
Miss him more than ever now

It just feels a bit pointless and futile now

No, I’ve never been worried about the virus.
I’ve had loads off shit to deal with in my life.
Marriage shit. Family shit. Financial shit. Divorce shit. Health shit. Death of loved ones shit. Neighbour shit. Other people’s shit.

This is just another load of shit and I’ll deal with it if I need to

Completely agree @wanderings

I met a friend today. She knows I'm struggling, and she's logical enough to know that we are not risking ourselves or anyone else by going for a walk. We were close enough together to talk easily, but far apart enough not to be in one another's air-space.

It reminded me of the real life I'm missing, but it was bloody lovely to see her.

Sod the lockdown.

I’m so envious of people who live near enough friends to do that.

Well, I’ve got one nearby but she is hiding in her house to the extent that she won’t go in the garden if the neighbours are in theirs. Not sure how long that friendship will last!

After what i have just experienced on another thread im fucking done with the whole thing.

Helena anything I can do? Will NHS stats help or will I get called a conspiracy theorist again?!

You will see it on the main thread.

Is there a link to that petition?

Helena, look in the Petitions section. I posted a link to it!

I will sign the petition too. People are going to die of cancers and suicide and poverty and all number of things before this bloody virus. And it’s a virus that’s not going away. It’s time to learn to live with it

Thanks Cantata

Hi All

Another shite day in lockdown? @Cantata delighted for you that you saw a friend - I would bloody love to have a drink with you.

to all

@LilacTree1