I know IABU but I am totally fed up of lockdown

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So. I know I have an awful lot to be thankful for. My family are all in good health, we have no change in our income (yet), my husband is able to work from home, we have a big garden and had plenty of nice weather to enjoy it. There's just us two and our toddler in our house. We're a lot more fortunate than many.

But... I quite honestly don't know how much longer I can stand it. I'm grieving our old life, missing my parents so much, and finding it SO HARD to keep my toddler occupied at home.

I just want to go back to normal 😭 and it doesn't look like there will be a "normal" for a while. It's all just so uncertain and indefinite. It feels like there is nothing to look forward to any more and every day is a chore.

Anyone want to offer some solidarity?

how many of you will start to ignore the government rules and advice because of the boredom factor ?

‘Boredom factor’? Did you read any of the thread at all or did you just skip straight to the comment box to tut at people?

Anyone who wants to stay in for years because of the risk of Covid can do. However I'm sure most people have some personal experience of illness or death which shapes their viewpoint and I personally am not more upset by people dying of Covid than I am by people dying of a myriad of other things. And being locked down is awful for a lot of people and is causing and will continue to cause huge problems, which will also include people dying of things not related to Covid.

@disorganisedsecretsquirrel

I am interested to know how many of you will start to ignore the government rules and advice because of the boredom factor

I started to ignore them some time ago, but boredom has nothing to do with this.

Have any of you been out for anything but essential stuff in the last 6 weeks

Yes, every day.

@imapixie yes

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Sometimes remembering how blessed we actually are (straight out of the Paltrow handbook of platitudes)

I am going to put your posts down to the lockdown affecting your filter. You really are going to struggle to find anyone that feels bloody blessed on this thread. Jesus christ. It is NOT your job to preach to us mere mortals and how we are doing the lockdown all wrong, without the slightest, merest idea of how difficult this actually is for some people. If we can express our inner rage and pain at the situation on here, then we can float away with zen like energy to renew and revitalise the depleting energies of our darling offspring, or we can just have another gin, turn on sky news and cry at the hideous rolling horror show that is now our daily lives.

What I find most extraordinary is that you fail to see that for people like lilac and many millions more they are showing the most enormous mental agility to actually get through the day, they are the real survivors, battling on the front line of mental health trying to keep their heads above water. They don't need to pass one of your magic tests to prove that they are courageous and strong, they are already deserving of any accolades simply by being here with us on this thread.

I don't have, and I have never had MH issues and if I am really struggling, it does make me worry very much how much harder it would be if I did, and what it must be like for others. I send to everyone that is fighting on.

On the plus side there are reports that the recycling centres may be opening soon. The fact that this gave me feel a glimmer of excitement is testament to our predicament. At least we now won't get rats

*I am interested to know how many of you will start to ignore the government rules and advice because of the boredom factor ?

Have any of you been out for anything but essential stuff in the last 6 weeks ?*

I actually haven't been out other than food shop once a week and going for a walk some afternoons, not all, as I've mostly done it in the garden or garage

But I will ignore the rule about not seeing my partner if it isn't relaxed at the next review, I can stick to the rest but my mental health is suffering. I suffer from PTSD and high anxiety following a sex attack a few years back and I'm really needing him at the moment. My appointment isn't until June with the counsellor, things aren't always as clear cut as people breaking rules due to boredom. I will wear a face mask when I'm out my car to walk to his house up the drive and then stay in his house only. I don't apologise for putting my mental health as a priority

Fantastic post @Biscuit0110

Well said Biscuit0110

And I am tired of this idea that anyone who says anything negative ever about their life at the moment must be 'flouting' the rules. I haven't been out for anything other than food, exercise or medical appointments since a week before lockdown started due to one of us getting ill. I take the kids out to clap on Thursdays, we have rainbows in the window, I think lockdown is on balance the right thing to do. And I am allowed to be stressed and sad and sick of it without preachy reminders of how I'm not acting grateful enough.

You're absolutely right Biscuit0110

I've noticed that whenever anyone says that they're not coping with lockdown there is always someone who will post something to the effect that 'we should all count our blessing and stop moaning because some people in the world have no running water' or something similar.

I have yet to work out how feeling smug about what we have, as apposed to what some other less fortunately people in the world have, is actually supposed to make us feel better about the situation we find ourselves in.

@GoldenOmber Yes, I too moan about the lockdown. I'm on my own and I'm lonely and fed up. I'm finding it hard and I miss my family. But like you just because I moan about it doesn't mean I'm not going to do it.

Since the lockdown I've been to the supermarket 4 times and the pharmacy 3 times. Other than that I walk my dog in my local area every afternoon.

I do it because I too feel it's probably the right thing to do.

My view is that anyone who says the “just sit on your arse and watch Netflix” line is because that’s what their normal life is like pre Coronavirus. So nothing much has changed for them.

I’m sick of lockdown and really hope the government throw us a bone soon. DH and I are going out for a “drive” to get some space from DCs. We’ll stop at the (virtually empty) supermarket to get ice cream. So excited.

Biscuit “ What I find most extraordinary is that you fail to see that for people like lilac and many millions more they are showing the most enormous mental agility to actually get through the day”

Thank you for acknowledging this

About four hours ago I told mum I might as well kill myself. The comfort of that is I can always do it tomorrow

The hard bit is it probably takes more courage than I have. I was amazed to hit 40 and not have done it. Now all that good work is down the pan, alongside the economy.

Lilac, I hear you. The same goes for me. I had just about managed to establish a modus vivendi until this. It has now all fallen apart.

Cantata I wish I could help you.

LilacTree1 Hang in there. I recognise your name and your posts over the last few weeks are ones i always notice and nod along to Be here when this is all a thing of the past.

RunningNinja79 - ''The problem is we have nothing to look forward to. We need some proper hope. Not just being told there is light at the end of the tunnel as with the last review. I can't see the light TBH''

YES I moaned on here like mad when the last review was 'late' (i was expecting it on the Sunday/Monday) they left us hanging right round till bloody Thursday and i hated that. Many posters didn't understand why i was pissed off. They thought i was expecting to be told it was lifting. No. I wanted a review to give us some kind of mental scaffolding. A framework to work towards. Even if it's prone to change - please give us some kind of timescale which isn't this water torture of: maybe 3 weeks but maybe not in the same way it has been, but maybe it will be in the same way but more than a 3 weeks and maybe even more than that actually, but maybe less .....

Laiste it’s important to keep a close eye on what the fuckers are doing. The lockdown was announced on the Monday night but became law at 1pm on the Thursday. So that’s why they had their “review” three Thursdays later.

I don’t believe in karma but I really wish I did.

Sweden still doing well. Belgium doing badly in spite of early lockdown. So much science that will never be shared.

Lilac, that is so kind of you, especially when you are finding it so hard. Thank you.

This will end, one day. We have to count the seconds until then. I keep waking up and wishing I hadn't thinking everything is normal. For a few seconds. Then it isn't.

I think it was you Lilac who explained that to me on my ranty thread I had no idea about the law thing. Missed that completely.

Funny how little things tip you isn't it? I'm 90% OK but that really threw me, the 'bit more than 3 week' review.

Cantata and a virtual ((hug)) for all who are struggling.

Yep, I hit a wall today. My Dad is in hospital recovering from emergency surgery. He’s been unwell for a while but his GP wouldn’t do any face to face appointments, just prescribed him painkillers. Ordinarily I’d go down to see him but now he can’t have any visitors.

My Mum has said that they don’t want us to visit once the restrictions are removed because she’s convinced that she and my Dad will catch COVID19 and die.

We had lots of plans and now they are pretty much all cancelled.

I’ve got to the point where pretty much all news briefings and newspaper headlines enrage me.

I am sick of Zoom and FaceTime. I want to see people. Today a dog ran up to me while I was going to post a letter and it was really nice to see a new, friendly face. I told him that he was a lovely dog.

Laiste you missed the law because the media will never tell you

And we got that “stay home” text on the Tuesday morning.

Worth getting on the email list for Big Brother Watch.

My worry is the landscape after this is horrendous...but have to make decisions as they come.

CruCru “ My Mum has said that they don’t want us to visit once the restrictions are removed because she’s convinced that she and my Dad will catch COVID19 and die.”

My mum went from trying to figure out how we could see each other to thinking this. It’s shocking.

@LilacTree1and @Cantata me too. I keep going for my dc. I’d just got myself to a hapoy place after fifty years. Then this. I keep thinking very dark thoughts. I’m giving to see my partner before I go off completely. Obeying all other rules much as I hate them and they freak me ((CPTSD)

I am also going to say that comparisons between this and WW2 are complete unhelpful. My Grandma said that the war was fucking shit (not in those words, she didn’t swear). Everything was awful and if anyone moaned, someone would say “There is a war on, you know!!!” She said everyone forgot just how rubbish it was afterwards.

Feeling totally fed up with it too. No garden either, which makes it worse

One thing I would say to all the posters here is air your views in any surveys/ polls - join YouGov panel etc. I have been looking at the polling data for work and that indicates a lot more tolerance of the measures than in this thread. I do wonder if that will change soon. In my view this lockdown cannot he sustained with no inkling at all of a way out - people need hope. And it'll end up causing more deaths than the virus.

bread yes, tiny boiling flat, no garden.

I think people who say shit like “we’re all in this together” live in nicer places.