That's it I'm done

[babasaclover]

Right that's it I'm done. I've been locked in this house since January. First due to health now Coronavirus. I'm done been positive and thankful for having a garden etc - i need to MOOOOOAAAAANNNNN.

Anyone else thoroughly fucked off with it all? Never thought I would miss work and mundane stuff.

@Dowser I've read before that green vegetables and carrots can be useful when you have a migraine, if you had any of those with your roast?

I wish I had a bloody dishwasher!! Myself, my partner, a 12.5 yo, an 9 yo - and both kids are too lazy to do any washing-up!!

And what makes it even worse is that I'm 34 weeks' pregnant so can't bloody drink!!!!

Totally understand. We are all getting very bored indeed.

@Soontobe60 - yes, that feeling useless/worthless is getting to me too. A few days ago, I suddenly couldn't stand the Groundhog Day of just going for a walk, doing a bit of housework, reading. I set up a collection point for the local food bank and cooked some food for a family in isolation in our street. It helped me feel less disconnected and useless. Though the Food Bank manager who picked up the group donation looked shattered, she said she had to fend off offers to help as she has so many volunteers they get in each other's way and organising them takes more time than having the usual team getting on with the extra workload. Everyone wants to volunteer just to be out in the world doing something. It's so unnatural to be home alone all the time.

So glad to have found this.

I’m am so done. I’m a single parent and have had to spend every waking minute with my kids because their father would rather spend time with his girlfriend so he is happily mixing households so they can’t stay with him. I’ve been furloughed so I have nothing to do. I’m so sick of cooking, cleaning washing, one samey walk a day. Aaaaaaarghhhhh I’ve cried every single day and my kids have made a fortune by introducing a swear jar. To top it off I can’t sleep!! Please..... I want my life back.

I've also had the first dire day. The thought this might go on and on and on. Husband is germ phobic so I'm not allowed to shop in a shop. Until everything is lifted he'll stress every time I try to do some thing and live.
Everyday I take the kids for the small walk, cycle or scoot....never once raising my heart rate.... I'm used to getting out when I want when they are at school and walking with friends or going to the gym.

I want to know when life will be good again....

I can't drink wine because I don't have any. The shopping doesn't come until Sunday, with a bottle....and my order of gin doesn't arrive until Monday even though I ordered it ages ago....

I tried to enjoy Phantom of the Opera and didn't like it

And it's been raining all night.

I'm sure it will all seem better tomorrow....(another fun Saturday with no plans!)
Oh well maybe I'll find joy in cleaning out the spare room cupboard....

Thanks ladies. Moan over.

Yes I’m done - except I have a DH and teenage DD living here. I wish I was on my own tbh. Things would be much more bearable without people arguing about anything and everything. DD keeps showing me YouTube vids of her friends singing. I AM NOT fUCKING INTERESTED DD!! 🤬

At least my dogs know how to behave.

I'm in too! I've been holding up SHOCKINGLY WELL, but that's it. I had a crappy week and I want to MOAM

MOAN

Why does noone see the hand of fascism in all of this?

Mrs snitchnose..yes we had asparagus and mange tout
Hasselback potatoes ..all very nice

I hate waking up in the morning and temporarily having forgotten about the pandemic, and then the grim flooding back . Happened just now.

I disagree with those however who say we shouldn’t have locked down - and this lockdown is ok compared to some in other countries. We are already on a huge number of deaths - how many an ever increasing number would there have been without this?

What makes me so sad is the thought that the government could have taken a different and earlier approach and many less people could have died - and we could maybe have avoided the lockdown.

Was hoping to wake up and feel a bit brighter today but still gloomy. Discovered DP has overloaded the washing machine so nothing washed properly and he's managed to put two of my delicate tops in there with everything else, so ruined. Who gets to 34 and doesn't know how to use a washing machine properly?
In normal circumstances this would fuck me off. Today I might commit a murder.

Normally he works away in the week. I realise now he is home on Furlough that that might be what was preserving our relationship 😑

Usually I would retreat into a book. Reading has served me well in times of stress my whole life. I can't concentrate on anything at all at the moment so I don't even have that to fall back on. Can't get interested on. anything on TV. Have lots of furniture to paint, which I usually like doing-can't be bothered to do that either.

I'm a care home manager and these have been my first two days off together for three weeks. It's been super stressful and I've been working all the hours-thought I would love my two days home, but at the moment I'm almost looking forward to going in to work tomorrow.

I'm so fed up with it all too. It's a relief reading this thread - a relief that it's okay to say that it's awful, rather than the relentless pressure to Make The Best Of It.

I usually WFH a lot but on my own in silence but now having to share my workspace with DP and compete for work hours in the day while also trying to entertain/home school 3 DC of very different ages/needs. The youngest is 3. I'm so sick of the mess and noise, and the relentless meals. They are also starting to get bored and fractious.

I feel desperate for silence and solitude!

I am so fed up. I am ged up of putting on PPE and taking it off again, repeat for 8 hours.

And my hands are so sore from all the washing. They are bring red and cracked and adding hand sanitizer is agony.

I hope everyone has a better day today

I want to ride my horse and have usual lessons but worried it could end up in an A&E trip, just not worth it, he looks bored too.....actually he probably doesn't give a shit.
I would like to have a nice lunch and look around the shops with out feeling pressured. I miss my time without DH and DCs, they seem to constantly need something. The news can fuck off as well. Miss having coffee with friends. Struggling to homeschool, feel so guilty for it.
I know we are very lucky to be where we are but I'm so fed up.

Still having to work as I don’t qualify for any government help.
My lovely customers have decided they don’t want me in my former capacity so are giving me the shittest jobs to do - jobs they would pay a professional about £200 to do but instead are paying me £15 😫😫
It’s heavy, hard manual work & I’m fucking exhausted but they know I need to work so are taking advantage of me - I will remember this in the future.
I cried in the supermarket queue yesterday.
It was pouring with rain & I looked at everyone’s faces - everyone looked sad.
I felt like a cow being herded to its death.
I miss human touch so much
I miss my DP - my vibrator just isn’t cutting the mustard 😂
I’m sick of the fucking Stay Home adverts
Don’t even get me started on my roots - I look like a fucking badger
I just hate fucking everything today

The first three weeks weren’t too bad. I felt it was necessary to enforce some type of lockdown to reduce the spread of the virus.
However, I think that another three week extension has proved to be a major concern to many.
I just worry about the impact the extended lockdown will have on our lives. The number of attempted suicides/ suicides has increased. Domestic violence , loneliness have also increased . Even when the lockdown ends there will be consequences for businesses ( small and large)
I am fortunate in that both dh and I have our jobs . Dh mostly works from home anyway.
However, when I see the impact on others it upsets me.
I agree with Keir Starmer, we need an exit strategy.

I’m fed up worrying

I'm also really sad about the day that our High Street re-opens, wondering whether I'll go into town and half of the shops and cafes will probably be boarded up. I live in a town that is idyllic because of all the small independent cafes, restaurants and boutiques - I dread to think if there will be any left, and if the High Street will just be a few charity shops and a Poundland.

I have to go to the supermarket this morning, I'm dreading it. The only thing I'm looking forward to is the drive, going to go the longest way there and back thank goodness for this thread.

Yes! I have found my people! 4 weeks of suspected coronavirus (but no test) ending in mild pneumonia, antibiotics so I can't drink(!!)
3 year old DD at home, DH wfh and can't possibly look after her at the same time because he has a penis. Whereas I clearly can, whilst keeping up with a bit of work and being really quite ill, because I have a vagina.

@Dowser that duck dinner sounds delicious.

Today things are feeling better....I might jump on the exercise bike....(reality I'll scroll on the phone and won't).

Plan to get a child to mix cookie mix.
Hope another child might do an animation with me.
Third child might not play PS4 all day!! Ha. Probably not.

Casualty to look forward to tonight.... although for some reason it's on really early.

Hope you can all find rainbows this morning.

Yup @Quarantinequeen, I think the lockdown is exposing the realities of gendered divisions of labour in lots of households (my own included). Hope you're feeling better soon. It all sucks so much.

@duckme bit late in replying to your post, but I was reading through the thread this morning (I posted a moan last night too) and wanted to say that your holiday post resonated with me hugely! We too have saved like maniacs, and did very little last year, in preparation for this year and our big holiday. Which also coincided with DH’s 50th. We are insured but will still probably lose a few hundred, and a loooooooong summer holiday to fill after also enduring lockdown now just feels RUBBISH!