I have had a really stressful time at work in the last six months that really took its toll on me, anxiety, sleepless nights, depression. My life felt in limbo then, I stopped keeping fit, and generally felt in a fug.
It ended a couple of weeks, there was a resolution in my favour. A load was lifted. The days were getting longer, blossom was coming out, spring was in the air, and in my step. I started to exercise again. I was looking outwards and forward.
All this relief and positivity lasted one week. Then this, a sense of impending doom. I feel like the whole country (world) is going to go through a seismic change because of this. Not just the deaths, but perhaps the lack of social order, businesses will go bust, the world economies will take a long time to recover, with the potential for many job losses. I am due dentist and hairdresser appointments in a few weeks which I will put off, and I can't be the only one. (And then we have BREXIT uncertainties at end of year.)
I am taking things a day at a time. I have to go into central London later today. The sun is shining. I am getting a later train. I am taking my book, a pastry and my hand gel and just carrying on.
When this is all over, I hope we all have a better appreciation of life and normality and routines! The stuff we moan normally about is mostly pointless and becomes a habit. I hope we appreciate our lives and what we have, the people in them, the services we rely on, just about everything.
It's amazing to think that something that potentially started in a food market in late November in a country so far away, has flooded the world. We may all look different, be protective of our own traditions and borders, but when something like war, climate change, or pandemic is concerned, we are all just people and we are all in the same boat.
All things pass, all things pass....my mantra.