To feel like my life is on hold? Anyone else?

[DreamInLavender]

I suspect it is to do with COVID 19. I don't know. I just have this awful bubble feeling, like I'm just on hold for a while.

Similar to the feeling of waiting to test when TTC my son, or waiting to hear back from a job I really want. I just feel trapped!

Anyone else?

[NeverTwerkNaked]

Yes, a strange sense that we are heading into uncharted territory. And a real fear what it will be like. Especially for the most vulnerable people.

[pastabest]

I've obviously got bigger worries too about CV like immunocompromised family members but weirdly it's the smaller things I'm feeling most sad about.

DC1 is supposed to be starting preschool after Easter and has been so excited about it. She obviously doesn't actually know when that really is so won't really know if she doesn't go until later in the year but I'm sad that CV may impact on her starting.

Also we were hoping to have our first family holiday this year. We hadn't booked anything but it was something think about and look forward to after a difficult few years.

In fact I think that's it, we've had a really difficult couple of years as a family and finally it felt like there was some light emerging at the end of the tunnel and all that positivity I was starting to feel now just feels like it's been totally shit on by CV.

[SelfIsolating]

pastabest that's how I feel to. Things were really just starting to get better for us after a rough few years and now this.

[Dylaninthemovies1]

Glad it’s not just me. It just all feels so strange.

I’m really hoping that Boris is making the right decision by not closing things down

[Cissyandflora]

I’m feeling terribly worried. I have to send the children to school tomorrow and I really don’t want to. I can’t put into words the dread I feel.

[T0tallyFuckedUpFamily]

I know what you mean. It doesn’t feel real. It’s similar to the feeling I had when my husband was diagnosed with terminal cancer, though I was completely distraught as well. It’s the fact that I know that statistics suggest that I will lose some of my wonderful clients (dog sitter) and friends. I can’t bare the thought of it. 😢 I feel like I’m waiting for a disaster.

[Isla727]

Me too OP. I hate it. I wrote an email on the 'DearFutureMe' website earlier on- it was an email to my future self (August this year)- just asking how things pan out because I absolutely hate the uncertainty at the moment! I want to know that my family will be okay and that this will pass!

[Isla727]

Also why isn't Boris just closing things down for a fortnight-three weeks so allow people with it to recover and people without it to avoid it!

[biwinoone]

@DesdemonaDryEyes we have lost way more than that. Third of our savings just gone and we know it will be more than that. I know stocks wont go back up like before when this is all over and will take around 5 years for it all to pick up only to fall again

[Isla727]

@Orange89 It's also like the film 'Contagion'- just doesn't feel real!

[biwinoone]

I feel so sorry for doctrs, nurses, care worker..every one working in health care. They not only have to fight it but are also exposed to it. I also feel sorry for teachers who are exposed to super spreaders, people who work in shops and have client facing roles. They can't escape it. And the people on zero hour contracts, how are they going to manage financially? There is no plan for anything.

[Isla727]

@iMoan7- try Neutrogena Norwegian Formula- I have chapped and bleeding hands a lot of the time and it works wonders. It's best if you put it on at night so that she doesn't need to wash it off at school.

[Lou670]

I am trying to get on with it and carry on as 'normal' as I can. I have lost money (7k) within a week due to shares value falling. It will turn around and recover with time.

My biggest concern right now though is that my daughter is in her final year of student nursing. She has just got in, as on placement right now in a local hospital. They had 4 confirmed cases today and they have closed off part of the A&E department. She has had to be gowned up, with face mask and full face visor!

She has now been exposed to it as was not in protective garments until the cases were confirmed.

I am finding the 'toilet roll saga' hilarious! Went to Tesco's earlier this evening and the place was packed out and every single trolley had a pack of toilet rolls in it! Within minutes of restocking the shelves they were empty again!

I do feel like a sitting duck and wondering what is going to happen next.

I am not sure whether the correct decision has been made. I have a feeling that as usual the UK will have acted too late.

[Rockbird]

Yes to all the above, except the shares. Right now I'm worrying about meals for the weekend never mind shares...

I have an underlying health issue as do my parents and my in laws and DH although healthy has never had great lungs. So I'm shit scared. I'm really struggling with how vulnerable I feel, it's the first time I've felt like this and it just feels like the world has stopped turning. It's peculiar.

[Beaniebeemer]

I’m really vulnerable at the moment as I’m out of work. My partner has also left his employment to become self employed which is awful timing wise. We have had less contact with others as a result though. Almost like involuntarily isolation. I am meant to be starting a new job next week and I’m desperate to get the contract signed. Money is seriously tight so I can’t afford to buy extras at the shops. Got two kids at primary school and worry about them being exposed. This year so far has been bloody awful.

[Isla727]

Sorry to hear that @Lou670- is your DD now isolating for a fortnight? At least that will keep her away from the cases from now if she can.

Where in the country are those cases?

@Rockbird, me too with the vulnerability and having underlying conditions and close relatives with them just sucks!

[QuestionableMouse]

@iMoan7 you need a tub of the pale green Atrixo. It has ingredients that stay on your skin and protect it.

I feel like I can't plan anything. I really want a holiday but don't want to book anything because of the current situation. There's talk about our uni graduation either being postponed or just not held.

The uncertainty is really getting to me.

[Jenasaurus]

I know what you mean, I wake up feeling normal and then I remember whats going on in the world and why I am now working from home Its like a bad dream. 3 months ago, I was looking forward to a holiday with my DD in May, now I have cancelled it, 3 months ago I could go to the shop and buy loo rolls, now I have to ration it. I cant help looking on the news and checking the updates and spend my time thinking about those poor people that have lost loved ones, and then find myself wondering who I may lose...life has become dark and serious for everyone hasn't it.

[Lou670]

@Isla727. No worryingly she will not be in isolation! She has just got in about half another ago and will be back at the hospital for 9.30am tomorrow.

There were 3 confirmed cases and 1 a possibility today. This is a West Sussex Hospital.

[Lou670]

*hour

[Isla727]

@Lou670 - your poor DD and poor you!! I hope that she doesn't get it or that it's very mild if she does.

[MadisonAvenue]

I'm feeling that way OP. It's really unsettling. I sat yesterday and actually questioned myself as to whether I was dreaming this, it's so surreal.

We're supposed to be going on holiday in May, who knows what the situation will be then. One of our sons was supposed to be taking a school trip to Germany today but that was cancelled yesterday afternoon and our youngest son had an email tonight from the holiday company that he's booked to go to Rome with in June, informing him that they've already cancelled the holiday.

I'm also scared because I'm in the at risk category for flu, as are both of our sons, and I just don't know what to expect from this.

[SomethingOnce]

I want to go to sleep for six months and wake up when this uncertainty phase is over.

[Jenasaurus]

SomethingOnce that's odd, I just said that exact phrase and then came on here and saw your post.

[Jenasaurus]

My friend has just message me she cant sleep as she is being tested for it and terrified. She is West Sussex too. She had hot flushed feeling, a cough, sore throat and ear ache. She is high risk as she has an underlying health condition and she has a connection with a place in London with cases.